anxiety and depression

[Anyone123]

i just want to know if anyine else is feeling this way .I ahad a trigger and am feeling extremely low in self esteem and a lot of self hate

[ZeroChaos]

Absolutely. I just had some sort of ... fit? Episode? Breakdown? last night. I don't know what happened to cause it except that I feel like I'm useless and damaging the people I love the most. You are not by yourself. I've quit looking in the mirror and I don't look at my reflection in a window either. I'm scared of all the things that don't exist and the ones that do exist as well. What can I possibly contribute to anything?

[CindyKatherine in reply to ZeroChaos]

Please read my post above. Thanks. Fear is known to all men but, our fears are far lesser than the realities of life. I used to be scared of many things but then I understood my fear gas no influence or impact on the realities of life. Instead, it brings trouble. I often commonly say "if you fear you will die, and, if you fear not you will still die if the world continues", ao, I said why should I fear. I will rather courageously act and whatever the result I will be glad it was a decision rather than a convulsive reflex, I made based on what I knew at the moment and be proud of myself.

Fear means nothing. It still will come but it comes only to go too quickly away. Thanks.

[ZeroChaos in reply to CindyKatherine]

Oh, I still act. I still function but the constant war in my mind and the tense muscles and the irritability hurt. It takes a lot to do what other people find so simple. I can't even sleep to get away from it. I wake up screaming. My husband says they are the scariest sounds he's ever heard in his life. Or I cuss some dream person out. The things that scare me are losing my family. My family is tiny already. Me, my mom, stepdad, husband and son. So that fear comes and doesn't go quickly anywhere but straight to my shoulder muscles. I am glad you found a way to master your devils though.