window of wonderful

[9261952]

I hit bottom last Friday and for the first time ever skipped my meds.i guess that caused me to enter a manic episode. Mine aren't extreme. I just suddenly feel like interacting with people as opposed to the very extreme avoidance behavior I had drifted down into. So I'm 7 days feeling good but plan to check into the hospital to be assessed and get a therapist. I'm realizing that there no meds that can help a determined mind that wants out of life. My plan is to journal, talk with a therapist and have my family hold me accountable for my behavior. Meanwhile this beautiful window of enjoyment is something I am very grateful for.

[fauxartist]

I know how that roller coaster ride of missing meds is for me... and I do know there is a side effect that makes you feel pretty bad, so I feel for you missing your meds.

I love the title of your post, and it says it all for me on those days when I feel balanced and happisher...'window of wonderful '.... it's so great to know that I can have good days even with depression, and many don't, which I can't imagine. There is so much despair in the world and it feels like on some days you just have to switch off from it and sit in the yard and watch the clouds go buy, laugh at the mocking birds stealing the cats food, and just let the world turn.

I wish there was an easy fix, or an answer, a cure, a 'one size fits all' solution in some magic pill...but there just isn't yet. So we do the best we can with what we have for that day.

[9261952 in reply to fauxartist]

Thank you for your reply. When I think of what state I was in one week ago, I feel like an exorcist might be better than the hospital.

[fauxartist in reply to 9261952]

I know what you mean... exorcising the demons that torment so many of us. Those haunts and old ghosts of the past. Of course these are metaphors for my mental injury of child abuse and abandonment, but it's dealing with torment nonetheless.

[9261952 in reply to fauxartist]

Last night was the first this week for my meds to knock me out so I guess the manic state is lessening. Feeling so happy right now. Got to learn to use zoom and had a chat on it with my daughter, granddaughter, and great grandson.

[9261952]

Thank you

[fauxartist]

thank you snowdayze...

[Kainan]

hey that's a good plan you gave there. Keep doing those things you need to do 👍