How is everyone doing?

Today started off sad, but I was able to get a lot done. Things got a little better. How is everyone doing tonight?

[compasnet]

...doing well. ...glad things are better for you

[Hidden in reply to compasnet]

I am so glad you are doing well. I was able to get a safe area for them to go in at night, but I did order some extra wire that is smaller to add the bottom and lower sides. Should help some.

[EndUser13]

I'm glad to hear things are looking up, even if just by a little.

I'm an interesting mix of happy and sad 😑

[Hidden in reply to EndUser13]

I had a day like that happy and some sad. I hope loads and loads of happiness comes to you.

[EndUser13 in reply to Hidden]

I'd like that and thank you, I wish you well too

[Hidden in reply to EndUser13]

You're welcome.

[101315]

Great news, thank you for sharing. I am currently looking for positive things to get behind.My natural instinct is to ask you what you did with the chickens but I do not want to be insensitive. Forgive me if I struck a nerve.

[Hidden in reply to 101315]

Hi, am glad you are looking for positive. On my hardest days I try to name the good that happens in my life that day and what I am grateful for. Even if it is really something simple like having my morning cup of coffee. Clipping fresh greens for my chickens and rabbits and things like that. I also like to watch how to do things videos. Mostly with fugal living and farming, but I do like to watch budgeting videos too. Makes me happy to see people reach their goals.

It is not insensitive to ask about the chickens. There wasn't much left after whatever got into them left. Only feathers. But I did clean up the pin and got some more roosting post, got a safe area set up for them at night and found some wire online that should help a lot.

I hope you find good positive things to think about. Do you have anything that you do that makes you happy?

[Adlon57]

I hate Sundays, cleaning up day, washing clothes,🙄😏then trying to watch ANYTHING on tv, Woman's football🤮and Commonwealth Games🥱 so looking VERY much to some😴😴

[Hidden in reply to Adlon57]

I feel like that a lot of weekends. Those are the days that I normally overthink about everything. I was able to spend time with my sister and brother this weekend which was good. I used to do all of my cleaning on one day. So, I changed things up a little. Doing some each day, so everything doesn't fall on one day a week. I normally spend about 30 minutes to an hour each day.

I do watch some tv, but I love to read and watch videos that I can learn from. I take care of my animals and work in my garden. Though the garden is about done this summer. What do you really enjoy doing? Do you have any hobbies that truly makes you happy? Is there anything you want to learn?

I hope you have a great night.

[Adlon57 in reply to Hidden]

Researching for my book which now probably never get finished?

[Hidden in reply to Adlon57]

That is great you are working on your book. It is amazing the amount of research you can do online with your local library. Most books can be read only from library's now.

Please look at working on your book as a positive thing. Instead of saying I might not get it done, you can say I am going to work on my book little by little until I get it done. It may take you years, but you can do this.

I would suggest making a routine of working on your book. Maybe set aside 30 minutes a day for a few weeks to get that habit started. Then if that works out make it 40 minutes or more.

For a few years before I started homesteading, I always planned but I never really started the process to homestead. Then I told myself I can do this, and I went and got one rabbit. Then I got another. A little while later I got my chickens and two small greenhouses. I now have a fruit tree planted. I want to get a greenhouse by the end of the years I am already working on composting. Next year some ducks. Little by little I am making my dream of having a homestead work for me. But I had to take those steps to get it started.

Good luck on your book. You can do this.

[Adlon57 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks Faith12345 I'm afraid you are speaking to an old hand, been doing this book for 13 years, my routine has been very much set by my health, ok days and bad days, very much an expert on the subject, even programs on the TV now using some of my research material, so an acknowledged authority!I live on my own, but recently retired, although downsizing due to size of my house, all mine, and general health overall, even my medical specialists advise "Move!" I am not too mobile, but readily agree on their advice!

My garden is getting out of hand, tried to plant various things, some success, but again lack of mobility restricts. I cannot drive, transport very much restricted, until recently financially tight, now pension in my grasp maybe...🤞

[Hidden in reply to Adlon57]

Are there programs there that can bring you places? Where I live the elderly can get free transportation to doctor's appointments, to get groceries, shopping and sometimes to events in the area. My mom never used it, but I know that a lot of people do that. They even have people that can bring meals to you each day. Not sure if you have anything like that in your area.

[Adlon57 in reply to Hidden]

I'm a stubborn ol bugger, I like my independence, I DO NOT LIKE PEOPLE LOOKING AFTER ME!, although my health always has something to say about that, I'm a qualified cook, so can look after myself, at the moment, I need change from my present enviroment, which I have never liked, sixty years held back! I am the local lab. rat unusual or rare medical conditions my speciality, has meant endless medical appointments, inspections, scans, xrays, ct scans, mri's, etc, etc, etc, all my life, reactions to various things my speciality, AZ vaccine and my reaction to that, one of my latest colourful displays, personal specialists, etc, etc. [Despite that I want to travel, get out see the world, if I ever get the chance?]🙄

[Adlon57 in reply to Hidden]

Despite all me gurning, I have just entered the pension club, a bit better off financially I hope? I have been going through a really bad patch since 2016, when put on an epilepsy medication, my house needs a real good clean, but have the shredder to help me, find 'thing' that have been lost in this dark period? An incredible amount of tests etc, since my terminal diagnosis a year ago [one more seizure my last one], Thanks to NHS in Northern Ireland for that [under extreme political pressure of course🙄😤] currently being tested for prostate cancer my latest hurdle, next tuesday🤞 a light shinning through?👍

[FindingTheAnswers]

Hi Faith. I could be better, but I could be (and have been many times) a lot worse. At times, buried deep in my brain is the trauma (hurt,,, hurt and....... the feeling of being totally alone). This from my crazy (dysfunctional) family and ex-wife. I still often feel alone, even when with other people. I was dysfunctional also, and still am in some ways, but hopefully less so. But none of the others wanted to change. They didn't have any problems.

I have problem with insomnia (and Depression, Anxiety, and,,,) Whatever Rx the Dr gives me, my body gets used to it quickly and stops working. I work midnights (less, people, less drama) with rotating nights off.

I'm off tonight, and still at this age, I get the Sunday night back to school Blues. And the deeply instilled, feeling of being alone. For as long as the feeling of being alone has gone on, I still seem to ignore it, or,,, that it's automatically there. Like breathing.

I do want to say that my life is tremendously better. I try to stay away from people who, basically I don't care for. And try to spend more time with people I'd rather be with.

I am tremendously lucky to have 1 friend who has been in my shoes (same, but different). He was actually my Boss many years ago. But also like a (sane) Father or older Brother. He was the 1st person I ever really trusted. And that was partially because we worked together 5 days a week. If we hadn't spent so much time together,,,,,, I doubt I would have ever believed that were any reasonable people who do care and are worthy of my trust. My friend is retired and lives in Florida, but we still talk. I'd like to talk to him more often, but don't want to be a pest/burden. But I'd rather pay him than a Mental Health Pro. And I'd get better results.

I've had many (MANY!) years and different types of counseling. I was way behind most people, in that it took, I don't know how many years, to figure out who I am, what I want, who I don't want to be around (family we're stuck with until we get to be a certain age). Some days I'm still not sure I truly know who I am.

The problem people in my life, I did not cure them, change them, heal them. But in some ways, they did make themselves somewhat better by sucking the life out of me.

For whatever reason we've been put on this path, we have to keep pushing forward. That being said, I don't know how survived my teens and 20's.

To me, the best Rx is quality relationships. And there are many people out in the world who I could have more quality relationships. But they're hard to find. Partially because it takes me a long time to get to know someone, -until I feel I know their true self/nature. And that they're worthy of my trust (I don't mean for that to sound uppity or snobbish). Getting older, with my friends being married with kids and now grandkids (Grandkids? How did that happen?), they've got more 'Normal' lives.

I guess I answered your question, but sorry about the dissertation.

I wish you all relief, peace of mind, and even happiness.

Never Give Up!

Regards, CW

[Hidden in reply to FindingTheAnswers]

Hi how are you this morning? When I feel alone or stressed, I like to keep busy. I like to work with my animals, work with my garden, read and learn more about farming, frugal living and budgeting. What do you enjoy doing?