I had a 1week gym card to a really nice gym which has also group classes. I really like yoga and dancing is my new hobby. Litterary makes me feel so good. Even basic gym helped me with my headache and tension. The drastic change in my mental stability since hte last time hwen i was going insane because of the job and my anxiety f. But my card expired today and they told me that If i make a monthly card rn i don't have to pay begging tax. I don't have money and i remembered granma offered to give me because hse was happy i was hyped about it. She told me it's gonna be for my birthday and i was okay and bought a new card. Then hse messaged me it's gonna be from mom and her! This means mom doesn't want to give me a separate gift. As If she's married to grandma. And she's manipulating again. If iknew, i wouldn't buy the card. If iknew it would be my only gift.
And i was feeling unwell already. When i asw hte message i was ready to puke. Thought hwat has mom done again, why is she manipulating to give me less, does she drink too much m, or have another kid, or htinks dad will pay my everything. I HATEEEE myself for hating on dad. In htis family i never know who to trust.
And i missed yoga, missed hte post, missed to clean because htat guy i was talking to told me his brother had an accident and he needs money and snapped out at me for being heartless. I litterary did nothing and i'm overwhelmed. This money thing drove me insane before the interview and now again. I just needed someone to talk to
