devistated....mixed feelngs and emotions of course

someone ..essential...to me.....just relieved to me ....that she was devoted to her Lord and personal savior Jesus Christ......

while im thankful hes always there for her....thankful she has him and such a love and and...

thankful happy for her

speachless.........and ..........will be for weeks....totally selfish.....totally .....horrible of me....

she will never need me the same.......terrbile atttude of me and im trying but im just shattered....my head in one place yelling at myself....the othr.....sinking towards the abyss.....

will pull out in few weeks.........in Britain....the colmmitment to JC is common and they share that and

nothint against JC.....prob semantics.....hes her savior.......

horribly selfish of me but u dont lose unless u dare to love....

be thankfrul uve knwn such a person......even if u lose her....

will p;ull out in fw weeks or months....

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music.youtube.com/watch?v=3...(Not working as expected?)

in tribute

to beloved wives....ish

many men and wives know esp in Britian

depth....unlike this country

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song- halleluhah- u tube Lucy Thomas....

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sorry Britain....

sorry

Great

Britain..........

(the world famous P 51 was a dog til we put RR engine in her......

worlds most beloved planes......Spits.......most glorious wing)

[Midori in reply to Hidden]

Yes, RR do great aero engines, and the Merlin was one of the best in WW2, and it also powered the Lancaster, and I think, the Mosquito.

I do agree with you about the Spitfire. Gorgeous aircraft!

Cheers, Midori

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that ....ud take the time.........to talk about it.....per se as this country soo antimiitary antihistory

and help me acknowledge

the people who held the line.....

all alone................shared their courage...and example3

with dumb young yank.....

Gd Lv the British People....

[Dolphin14]

Brig

I'm sorry you lost this friend. People follow their own paths.

It will hurt of course. Take your time and grieve the loss of the friendship.

Sorry you are hurting

❤️🐬

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conflicted.....so sossooo wrong for me to take it this way..she a deep friend u know mature woman who ....u know.......was so special....soo.......internal respedted her long term.........wrong of me to take it this way.....should be thankful she has him....

will sort it out ..part of u thankful she wil alwys be loved and have him....part of knows ur taking it wrong.............

thank u for ur pateintce ...at elast she will alwasys be loved and he wil always be ther for her...

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taking it comepletely worntg i know....just hit me....will get my heae and heat5 tuned around..thk u .......soo bizare how the heart works.....how deeply u can feel certian people....they prob dont even know.

[Dolphin14]

You can't help your feelings Brig. They are yours and they matter.

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ur kind......they eat me at the college....im ext vulnerable right now and instead of mocking me ur.....gracous...

people ...said v privately...have no idea how attached...in respctufl way ....we get.....like how wud feel if lontg time park...very special ...were to be clear cut by a developer?? .....that.......kind of feeling......known this park and becomes ....

anyway.....few people wuld not tell me to get a grip or etc

clueless and wh i dont share ....

appreiactae it (udnrstament)...work helps u forget....

tks

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Sorry Brig. These things can hurt deeply.

[Midori]

Sorry to hear your lady friend is more devoted to religion than to you.

Makes me sad.

Cheers, Midori

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i do get it....JC her personal savior i do...and thankfull....

just v vv v special person......

adjustment....

t5hnk u for ur4 kindness..

[Midori]

Any time. You are a special person too, loads of empathy, the empaths are always hit hardest when things go down the drain hole.

I'm always here to talk.

Cheers, midori

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respectfully, ********

brig

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what i owe GB......no words .....ever

tk u

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yes ..she was extremely mature special....yes...know u know