Overthinking, trying to control, thinking is it better to stay here, scared to go back to university city

[Against_the_current]

I'm driving myself crazy overthinking, trying to control everything. I'm now thinking i want to stay home, with mom and sis and no agoraphobia and no roommates, how will i start work, DID I MAKE A MISTAKE APPLING. But my boss seems really nice(the keyboard gave me scary) and i wanted to do this for so long, i really wanted this job, and the moment omm drinks or gets mad i would want to run back to university city. It's not growing up. Espessially with my agoraphobia and Social Anxiety and i get really alone, scared and hungry there. But i'm anxious here. Aghh.

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Ok, we're officially going to the beach. You and me. Right now.Here's an image to get us started:.

Overthinking brain at beach

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

I really really need it

[Hidden in reply to Against_the_current]

Me too. More than anything. Don't forget your sunscreen.

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Yeah, the sun is so bright. I really need a vacation, worried i might not be able to go on one with my situation

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You're overthinking this.....

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Need to ground, now i'm Overthinking even more because of other family issues