I feel sick

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I feel so nauseus and feverous. My temperature is kinda normal, i don't have a fever, just a bit high because of anxiety hormones. Really nauseus. Really anxious since i arrived. Got accepted for for work so fast. I applied during a panic attack. I will have to go back to university city next wednesday and now i feel like i don't want to and i will screw it up.

P. s. Anyone noticed writing here got really hard? Like my keyboard goes insane

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Sonofabiatcha, I was composing a beautiful & compassionate piece for you, when my screen just quickly scrolled it away! Hard getting that down. Hey your the Pastel Ghost!! Never mind this! The last 3 days been a joke, but, nobody’s laughing. Check with me when you get home; I need your help, very much. I would appreciate, aw just got in touch

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How can i help?

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ull wont screw it up ...u will just do it......im not even going to worry about it...

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Thanks

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i dont need to tell u my confidence...look at what u already have coped with..thats not a pep talk or oror...ur not in some...fun area...ur in a war zone...ur dealingt with it \same as any marine would have to...damn scary........damn scary damn scary...u still will do.it...u ha\ve the guts and the depth and the brains to walk in and just do it handle it ...not fun bur thats not the question...u will have more abilty than u think....im not worried....ur prob suprise urself.

dont try to logic it....its not logic....u ll just do it.

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Thank you. I have been doubting myself, thinking i'm weak, i can't do it, Overthinking everything, searching for logic so bad. I needed to hear i was brave and capable

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u fell into a raging river...what logic....u will fight for life....it will grab u....u will do it...more abiliy and self presercatioj than ur mind knows..ur body...will not let u fail.....u will go in do and its done ane uf eel gret and relieved its past u......but our suvviveal instincrs kick in...won5 let u not do it.

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I'm really really in a raging river and it's dragging me and not letting me out