Time to act, i can't torture myself more. Going home. Have to face it. Then trying to come back here and work

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I was too scared to do these things but i finally desided - i'm going home Tommorrow, i can't even look at my bed where i have all those nightmares, i have to go, make sure everything is okay and come back here, find a job, get my guy trial week, go to therapy and eventually go to something like a holiday. All this staying and Overthinking is gonna make me crazy. I really needed it at time, peace and rest, but now i'm tourmented by anxiety and guilt and need to see sis, mom and Bob asap. Dad left, now i left. I feel guilty. I will try to go Tommorrow, come back at 22 July, If i can't make it till then, i will Come sooner. Therapy at 23rd, applying and then hopefully starting at 1st aug my appreciantiship till i start university. But i can't overthink it anymore. I need to just do it, otherwise i'm torturing myself in heaven

Yes, i'm scared, will appreciate some encouragement and/or funny pics. I find the memes we share here are the best. Hope i can make it. All of it

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Okay, now wondering whether i should go Tommorrow. Espessially when my roommates aren't here and i can stay all alone, the whole apartment for me, and i want to go home with no nicelodeon and everyone in the same room. Tho rn alone, watching spongebob, gaming and still on the verge of a panic attack