Awake

[Bookishbunny]

I’m feeling very angry. That I have no freedom that my family is so overbearing I feel like I’m choking at my life. I’m angry that I’m awake it four in the morning and I have to up for work soon. I want someone to talk to. I want to disappear. But honestly I just want to express all my hurt. But I know nobody would care. God I’m tired. I can’t even sleep because of the anxiety.

[Hidden]

We care! I'm sorry you're so angry. Does it help to get it out on paper?

[Bookishbunny in reply to Hidden]

No not really thank you though

[Hidden in reply to Bookishbunny]

You're welcome!

[Against_the_current]

I feel you so much. My family is draining the will to live out of my throat. Manipulating me untill i don't even know what is going on. Dad's a gaslighter, mom's a borderline manipulator both with psychopathic tendencies. Manipulation is breaking me so much that it makes everyone leave me and me doubt reality and want to stop exzisting. Like can't they just ask for what they want instead of manipulating me and ruining me? If mom wants a water, she won't say "please get me water", she would say "everything sucks, work is terrible, been working all day to feed you, your dad left" leaving us broken. This is a real example. Generational trauma sucks. Getting out saved my life. I see you work, can you move out and live on your own? Also connections with people outside of the family and people who understand are a need to me (which i can't fulfil because this manipulation twisted me)