Been a while, but figured I’d put it out there again. I’ve been struggling with a depression that I just can’t seem to kick, I have abused alcohol more lately because of it trying to numb everything but it just causes more trouble for me as per usual.
I’m about to lose everything, my wife, my marriage, my kid, and I’m so angry with myself because I know I’ve been such a fool that I have nobody else to be upset with other than myself and I know it.
A few years ago, my wife cheated on me, that I can’t shake and bring up the past, we got over it and worked through it but on our 6 year anniversary last year she was almost killed in a car accident right in front of me, and it’s the eve of that night that I dread that I honestly thought took my wife.
I haven’t been able to talk to anyone ie a therapist so all of this has been just sitting in my mind constantly and is hitting that breaking point if I don’t figure something out sooner than later.