Yes please let it rain tomorrow

[Starrlight]

Weather forecast says 30% chance of rain. I love rain. It is a shelter for me that matches my mood. I’m a pluviophile- a rain lover. I’m having the most anxiety provoking time over here and I need a break. I want to cry but it doesn’t quite come. I want to move past a mess I’ve made but it’s not time yet. The waiting is killing me. I think I screwed up. I think I will pay for it. I may be in danger. I need to keep stable and be positive. Maybe it will all work out. It could. I’m praying.

[Nothing_but_books]

Hoping things get better soon. Do you need to ask for help with the danger?

[Starrlight in reply to Nothing_but_books]

No there’s nothing that can be done. Thanks for being here.

[Nothing_but_books in reply to Starrlight]

You're welcome.

[c-mac]

I couldn't express negative feelings as a kid, but things were getting so rough at home. I'd wait until the house was empty (it usually was) and there was a big Texas Hill Country northern blowing in, and as the rain started to fall I'd play the piano to match it, but to also match what was going on in me. In this was, the rain as it grew and stormed would coax my tears until I'd had a good cry.