This is my first post. I have had depression as long as I can remember. I attempted sucide when I was young. I learned dealing with my emotions by getting some support from loved ones. Two people I trusted most betrayed me in last year one after other. Now I don’t have anyone I trust and can share my feelings with. I live with my life partner who doesn’t understand me, I don’t feel comfortable sharing my feelings.. I have a 20 month old baby. I need to study for a very important test. I constantly feel sad and keep crying and not focus on studying. I am very overwhelmed and I don’t know what to do. I feel lonely, sad and sometimes extremely angry. I don’t know how I can get hang if my brain and start doing what I am supposed to do. I know the post is poorly written but I don’t know what to include and what to omit. I want to get better for my baby he deserves best parents and I cant be good parent like this.
Trying to find help: This is my first... - Anxiety and Depre...
Trying to find help
Dear Bet, because of a young baby at home that adds even more to what you are already dealing with I would urge you to seek out a qualified counselor right away... call your area's Health Dept and have them set you up an appointment and don't take no for an answer...let them know you have a small child to care for also. Good luck and God bless.
Hi Randy, I didn’t know about it. I will try and look for it online and see if I can find help. I joined this group to get help. As I wasn’t able to talk to anyone..In one day it felt like a good outlet.. I woke up feeling bit lighter as I posted here yesterday before going to sleep.. My husband doesn’t understand why anyone will have depression because he never had it.. Seeking a therapist or someone where I need to pay would Need involving him.. I am a student And I don't earn anything.. discussing with him about getting help and arguing.. I don’t want to face that struggle at this point because if he doesn’t understand I would get in worse mental space. I really appreciate your kind words and suggestion.
This is also my first post. I joined for the same reason. Experiencing depression that was triggered by a pandemic and by a toxic work environment. I also experienced betrayal by someone that I trusted. It added a layer to my depression that I wasn't really sure how to work through. It's an awful feeling to trust someone and then they misuse your trust. I was told to seek out a support group. It's helping to see that we're not alone in our experiences.
Hi Val thank you for your honest response, it helps to know people are in similar situation. Pandemic plus being pregnant during the time did start my situation . Losing the trust in people just made it worse because I felt the time I invested in them was of waste as they were just using me. I hope joining this support group becomes one of the best decisions of my life and will become first step in my journey to heal. I also hope you also get support you need and start being and feeling amazing.
Hi. bet I would strongly encourage you to talk to your therapist or if you don’t have one to start looking for one . I found talking to my therapist online takes so much pressure off me because he does ant judge me. If it get really really bad you can always check your self into the behavioral health side of the hospital depending on where you live. If you ever need to talk to someone on here I will talk as soon as I see your message. I hope you are well and stay strong and positive. “You are stronger than you think and braver than you know.” I’m not sure where that quote comes from. Quotes help me connect so maybe finding some good ones for you will help you.
Hey..thank you for such supportive message and elaborating all the things I can do to get help. As I mentioned My husband never had depression in his life so doesn’t understand why I would have it.. Joining this support group is my first step..if this doesn’t help I will discuss with my husband and try and find a therapist..Motivational videos and Quotes help me a lot as well, their effects sometimes stay for few hours sometimes for weeks depending on many factors .. I really appreciate your comment .
Welcome here. This is a good place to share and get feedback. There are crisis hotlines and warm lines you can Google and call just to talk when things are really bad.I keep a gratitude journal each day, get out in nature and walk and music and quiet time reading or watching something spiritual helps too. Are you on meds or in therapy?
Might need them adjusted.
Be kind to yourself, that's a big one I m working on.
Hi Mary, thank you for your suggestion. I am currently not on any medicines.. My parents did take me to psychiatrist when I attempted suicide (17 yr old) and the doc put me on some medicines.. I took them for a year..I don’t know why it didn’t help me much and just made me numb..I convinced my parents to stop medicines..I managed by working on myself and getting help from people I trust.. I have struggled but never tried to harm myself after that.. When the thought comes I usually am able to suppress it by thinking about my mom and now My son.. I want to live a really healthy and happy life for him.
II don’t like myself ..Have many issues with myself so I am also trying to work on First liking my self and hopefully one day loving myself.
I have heard so much about gratitude journal I will give it a try.. I never thought joining a support group will be helpful but it somehow made me feel better than yesterday.
Thank you for reaching out and sharing. I am sorry you have been struggling with depression most of your life. Are you on medication? Do you have a therapist? I also have struggled with depression and I know it takes a combination of the right medication and counseling to help feel better. For me my depression was based on hormones and how I perceive things. Changing my perspective has really helped. It took changing my focus and distracting myself when the untrue thoughts came into my mind. It isn't easy to do this, especially when you are in a depressive episode, but the more you practice changing you focus the easier it gets and the more you will feel better. I also found this podcast (bit.ly/3PnufPr) helpful. I will be praying fo ryou and if you ever need to chat feel free to pm me. Hugs and God Bless
I have had times when I have been down too. I just told myself those times would not get the best of me. Focusing my mind on positive things helps (Psalm 23 and others). Praying throughout the day helps. Listening to positive music - like KLOVE radio helps. Seeking out professional counseling and support groups is good for me also. Prayers for you to feel yourself again. God Bless!
How are you feeling? I have been praying for you. Hugs
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