Really stressed. I can't proceed my trauma. Mind and body are agonizing. Plus ghost ocd

[Against_the_current]

Hi. I just feel like a truck has run over me. So stiff, so anxious all the time, insane headache, dizziness, nightmares, rn can't even breathe. And my thoughts are ruining wild. Everything stressed me, nothing is pleasurable to do, everything is stressing. I feel like i couldn't proceed my trauma. Like it's stuck in my body and mind. I feel broken. I'm having therapy but it's not working. I dread the calls with my therapist. 2 years only gotten me worse. The other one that i tried dissapeared and is rude and i haven't sent my homework but i can't, i'm slipping.

Also had some intrusive thoughts of passed ones and i feel like these thoughts will bother them and summond them to haunt me. I'm really scared of ghosts. One really scary shaman told me my anxiety is caused by a ghost. And my mom and Grandma always dream of passed ones and i'm scared. I know it's just my mind being traumatized and triggered (i hope). It's really scary, i slept with the lights on. I don't want to insult the gone ones but i have these intrusive thoughts about them and i panic that they might be bothered and summonded. (Oh now ghosts, i'm going insane)