Giving my volunteering presentation Tommorrow. Messed the rehearsals today. Messed everything. And anxiety and intrusive thoughts

[Against_the_current]

I'm giving my volunteering presentation Tommorrow and today were the rehearsals and i messed so much. I worry my leader and teammate are dissapointed by me and saw i can't make it. My head hurts so much and i get anxious, i just couldn't write my lines and couldn't remember them and couldn't study them. Now i will try to calm and write something better.

I went to have therapy and got agoraphobic and anxious all night and my therapist told me i cancelled it when i was anxious and i thought i told her not to cancel. I'm messing up everything and my brain still feels deeply fried. Also having intrusive thoughts about mom and sis. And intrusive thoughts of how will i work being so disabled by anxiety and i probably messed my bachelor and i'm not good at what im doing. I was when i signed but then the trauma...

[tofler]

Maybe try to deal with one thing at a time rather than bundling everything together and having all these worries rushing around inside your head. I often find that when I’m stressed about something (usually something at work) my mind goes into overdrive and sets off loads of other worries and lots of very negative and critical thinking about myself. Try to prioritise preparing for your presentation and once that is all done tomorrow it’ll give you more space to take stock and think if there’s anything you can do about any of the other things that are on your mind at the moment. Try not to be so hard on yourself. You’re doing the best you can under difficult circumstances.

[Against_the_current in reply to tofler]

Absolutely. Really needed to hear this, thank you so much. I'm overwhelming myself and ending up just burnt out and crawling to do something and despite the odds doing it. Thank you for your recognition

[tofler in reply to Against_the_current]

Good luck for your presentation today, I hope it goes ok for you.

[Against_the_current in reply to tofler]

Thank you!