Lost a friend, don't know why

[MaraZiyad]

Hello. I'm new here. Just joined freshly this afternoon.

I'm here because I lost a friend. My only friend. We used to message online.

I shared with her my mental health problems. She started ignoring me. I lost my memory of the past year because of ECT and my mother told me that I proposed to her a romantic relationship. I don't remember any of this. But I still apologized to her. She still didn't answer me.

It hurts so much. I don't know why, but she really meant a lot to me. I can't help feeling abandoned and alone. I sent her a message after 3 months of silence between us, I'm which I talked to her about my fight with my mother. I told her I don't want a lesbian relationship with her, I only want our friendship back. She still hasn't answered. I know she won't.

What's wrong?

[Daesin]

Honey whatever happened it’s gone. This is the time to develop new friendships. That one is but a memory. Don’t waste time on what isn’t gonna happen. Don’t beat yourself up because there is no proof you did anything wrong. This just didn’t work. Focus on healing, being healthy and find some new friends. You will be happier and more successful. Best of luck.

[MaraZiyad in reply to Daesin]

Thank you! ❤️