Ok this depression seems to be getting worse ! I dread every day when I wake up just to find I still feel the same way as I did when I went to bed ! I keep thinking one of these days I will wake up and I will see the old me again but to find every day is just the same is getting really scary and sad and I’m feeling really alone and finding since things haven’t gotton any better in months my friends and family are less likely to check in I guess they find I am depressing well if only they knew how this feels to be me ! I use to be such an outgoing and happy person loves gardening ,working out ,hiking , beach trips and home improvement I was unstoppable with all my energy Now barely get out of bed and dressed and shower some days . Never go anywhere Oder groceries to be delivered . I just don’t recognize this person I am and don’t know what to do I really Ty every day to think positive and read and watch things that keep me alive it of my own way in hopes the distraction will help . Nothing helps I just needed to put this out there praying for hope and an end to this misery soon ! And to see my old self soon smilingly back at me 🙏🌈
Don’t even recognize me anymore:( - Anxiety and Depre...
Don’t even recognize me anymore:(
I hear you loud and clear. Turning into someone we don't recognize is incredibly scary. I hope sharing this helped some.
Thanks for the reply 💖
You're welcome! I did something back in early December that is totally out-of-character for me. I scared the living daylights out of myself. I was literally shaking for the rest of that month, and kept jumping at my own shadow. You are not alone. I hope you get back to a self you recognize soon. I am getting there, so it can be done.
Thank you for saying I’m not alone it means more to me than you know ! I am happy to hear you are getting back to yourself it gives me hope and I hope you continue feeling better and better ❤️
Thank you and I'm glad I am able to help!😊
Hi there, it’s a horrible scary feeling and nobody who hasn’t experienced this feeling can really understand can they, I’ve never had depression , I’m in my seventies, until last year when I had a bit of a melt down as I call it, though I’ve always been a little anxious sometimes, nothing serious, I wouldn’t wish it on anyone , I put it down to all we went through with Covid, thankfully after a course of A/D I’m better, it still lurks in the background, but I feel I can cope with it much better, and you will too, we have to believe we are stronger than we think we are, take care 😘
Thanks for sharing and support Arymretep glad the meds worked for you it maybe that what I am on isn’t working , will talk with my therapist tomorrow about this .
That’s the most difficult part, trying to explain to to someone that hasn’t experienced it, even Psychiatric professional’s. They have all of the book knowledge but not the actual experience and that is 2 completely different things. Once you “break “ it’s a forever dear because you now know what it does and that you are capable of it. The brain is a very complex organ. So many people’s suffering could be minimized some with great support system (read it all the time). Unfortunately for some of us, that isn’t an option and was dropped from everyone because of our breakdown or illness. It’s a very lonely, scary and horrible place to reside Alone.
Amen to that! People have no freakin clue unless they've experienced it. I'm sick and tired of people telling me that what I did was really bad. I'm like, "no sh*t. Can we please get back to how I can peacefully co-exist with myself again? I beg of you".
I'm so grateful for the people here and especially the posts... I can be with people but feel alone.. I never feel alone here
Man, do I hear that! Not alone, yet feel all alone. I agree; this is a great place to come for ressurance that we aren't alone.
I'm watching funny movies but for some reason my moods are all over the place.. I stopped taking pills to regulate my cycle because I got it 3 times a month.. On top of everything my pms is worse.
Agreed lve2dance so glad I found this site don’t know what I would do without all of your listening and support and guidance 💗
First group like this I have ever joined. Just now too/ I can only HOPE I feel this same way. I’m very glad you found support and understanding here. That makes me hopeful as well.
I hope this group helps you and makes you feel not alone in your struggles glad you found it !
Thank you 🙏- it will take me a little while to figure out how this works but please be patient with me, I will get it.
Have you seen anybody doctors and such, depression is dreadful. I have lost touch with my daughter because of her depression. I call she does not answer the phone. I hope you feel better soon.
💋 😘
Welcome among friends!
I'm with you on that 🙏💋.. I watch movies. Talk to my friends.. Work etc. I hope things turn around for both of us...
Hi I read this and it’s like if I wrote it my self I feel every thing you said Iam currently in bed like everyday because I don’t find joy in anything Iam here if you need to chat or anything as Iam going through the same thing as you
I’m sorry you are going through the same thing as me it’s the pits to say it lightly it’s more like hell . I would love to talk with you if you would like to talk pm when it’s a good time maybe we can help each out of this !
Literally, SAME! Can’t get up out of my bed or function
I can get where you are coming from for sure as you know I think from when we spoke yesterday. I feel like we try and there will be tests but we have to see the goal anx take the steps. That’s what I’m trying to do today, is start a plan for more control over my life and this is what will help as I get lifted out of depression there’s always the fear for me that I will slip into psychosis or make a horrible move or something but I can’t let the worry block my way. One of my friends uses me ad his holding him accountable for meditating and we take 10 together. I had a scary dream where one of the girls someone knew died. It likely was one part of me that I’m leaving behind. It’s telling me I’m ready. Listen to your heart and be compassionate towards yourself. ❤️
You as well Starrlight . I pm you I don’t know if you got it or not yesterday
Never give up! Let me check my pm I didn’t see it... thanks for the heads up
Ok let me know if you don’t see it maybe a could try and resend 🤷♀️
I just pmed you
Love and Support here, that breakthrough will surely comem one day. Especially when you are trying daily.I find I can still only read small bits in a book at a time now ..i used to be an avid reader
Have picked up in other areas
Keep posting.
Thank you back at you Roxylox ❤️
You are very welcome
What other areas have you picked up if you don’t mind me asking
Household tasks. Hardest being tidying, always difficult for me - am a hoarder.
Hate tidying, am gradually trying. Planning a few small painting tasks as well.
Enthusiasm seems to be on the up.
Must cut down eating rubbish though, am carrying an extra stone.
Brighter weather seems to be helping me. Trying to spend a little more time outside
Trying to journal regularly
I find that helps
Those are all great and glad your spirits are growing ion!😊
I have just accomplished two days ago clearing out my files and shredding lots of paperwork like 6 bags out to the recycle I needed to gather all my tax stuff for Cpa and decided to continue doing that but now two days later in bed doing nothing and tomorrow is therapy thank god lol
At least you accomplished that onerous task.that would have sent me to bed too lol.!
Sometimes we have to make a list of our family and friends who wold miss us if we were gone. Then we have to take one bite out of the elephant Sat a time. Watch a funny movie, take a bubble bath, eat some ice cream. Something g that tells ourselves we are worth it. Tell yourself ( I have a disease I didn’t cause,can’t control, and can’t cure.I will love myself right where I am in this disease. There are many people who have this disease and we are here to help each other. I have had major depression for 50yrs. I am learning to manage.
Hey Sueislove.....I am so so sorry you're suffering right now, and I can honestly say that I know what you're feeling, because you're describing me. I yearn for the "me" that once existed as a happy, content, outgoing, individual. I haven't seen her for nearly two years now. You don't say whether you're on meds or not, or whether you're retired. Just know, that here, we are "with you" and you'll find a listening ear should you need to vent. Sending huge hugs and love.🤗🤗🤗❤️
ps. I've been a depressive for 30 odd years, with some good spells here and there. Thing is, I'm still here, still alive but still in bed, I don't know how to get out!😪 😘😘
Hi Kam360 I am on 450 Wellbutrin which isn’t working but love that it had no side effects and other ones I have tried well my therapist says a medication resistant 🙄👻so right now it is what it is . I can’t try anything till next week since I had to go on prednisone for autoimmune problem but that ends Friday thank god that’s an awful drug! Thank for the support💖I am retired at the moment
Praying and hoping that you will become the old you.
I have been where you are and its horrid,but with time and perseverance i have pulled myself out of the hole i was in,and having regular phycologist councilling has been a Godsend,i still get dreadful days,but its getting better. And you will improve.
I have to agree. Turning into someone we don't recognise as us is scary, and since Covid we are becoming afraid of everybody and becoming hermitlike.
I moved home to Wales just before the first lockdown, because I could no longer manage stairs and the house wasn't suitable for a stair lift. I couldn't afford a bungalow in England. My Bungalow is fantastic! Great view across the valley, not directly overlooked (a pet hate!), yet, having been unable to get out and socialise, I'm feeling isolated. I'd love to go get a coffee and see a friend or two, but I've hardly met anyone here yet. Even my hobbies are being neglected, which is not me at all.
Like you, I shop online, and, as we furnished the house from scratch, we (my carer son and I) have been up to our eyeballs in Flat pack furniture, some of which is still awaiting assembly! My Garage is full (literally) of flattened cardboard packing boxes, right up to the ceiling! The garage door doesn't open at the moment, I am awaiting a new one, and then hopefully I can get rid of the Cardboard Mountain! (I can't even reach my wheelchair which is in one of the darkest recesses, but I can manage without it).
As I mentioned in a sideways way, a lot of it is down to Covid, unfortunately, and our natural nervousness of catching it.
Cheers, Midori
Hi Sueislove, And Goodmorning. I’m so sorry that your going through this pain. I hear and understand what your feeling and going through. I’ve been going through depression and anxiety for almost 2yrs and it’s been hell. But I got this far and u as well and that’s a blessing…I’ve tried Psychiatrist and their pills, therapist. But the only pill that’s worked for me and it’s temporary is lorazepan. The therapist for me blah blah the same talk, do a schedule, go for walks, take a trip, exercise. I did all those and more just like u. And it all stopped when I got hit with this unknown illness is what I call it…. So I was recommended to go see a acupuncture Specialist. So I said to myself why not try it, what do I have to lose since I’ve already lost all interest in the things I used to do before this illness. I went and did it this last Friday and I felt different and somewhat better which was strange to me. Like really all this time I’ve wasted I could’ve done acupuncture. So I decided to do 10 sessions to see if this is the way to go for this pain and struggle to finally go away. And I can say no more lorazepan or any kind of pills. I have my 2nd session today at 1:00pm So lets see if this acupuncture will set me free from this depression and anxiety for good….I’ll keep u posted Sueislove. Stay strong and positive 💪🏻🙏😇
I I will pray this helps you so yes keep me posted ! Thanks for your support! Really means a lot ❤️🙏
hi Sueislove, i hope today is better. We are all here on a journey..ty for sharing because the more that do share the more normal(what ever that is) we feel together.So many suffer and just lifting one(includes yourself) then its onto better lives.TY
We are in the same boat right now. I'm praying for you also Susielove, it hurts I know. 🌷🌸🙏
I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I have been in your shoes before. I talked with a doctor and my counselor and they were able to work together to help me find improvement. We are here for you anytime you need to vent!
So what besides medication helped you get out of this ?
Thanks you also for responding and supporting ❤️
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