Panic and anxiety

[Lostinside]

Hey there,

So I have quite a bunch on my plate including 2 jobs and a masters program. I'm in a long distance relationship and figured I could do an internship close to him. So I need to apply for a scholarship abroad. Then found out there is another one I can also apply to so I did. My Unis website is so chaotic and weird to navigate it all keeps giving me insane anxiety so I'm spacing out the paperwork. I feel so stupid for it giving me such insane anxiety but I'm glad I'm trying at least. My head just keeps spinning and I feel sick and my lung issues get worse.

A friend of mine put it quite accurately "it is great you have a grip on things and that you're so organised but you're your own helicopter parent. You have to put your legs up and breathe for a while"

I feel so inadequate lately. All I can do is try I guess.

[WriteMoveSpeak]

It sounds like you're doing some important things to manage -- spacing things out and reflecting on your friend's advice to not be your own helicopter parent! I'm struggling with a similar feeling lately - a lot on my plate including starting a master's program. I ended up quitting my job because it was all too much, but even school alone feels like a lot, especially since I have major social anxiety about speaking in class. Good luck to you! I feel your pain.

[Mikam1967]

Hi there. It sounds like you're doing an awesome job. Anxiety will definitely creep up on you if let in, but from what I'm reading you're definitely kicking anxiety in the butt. Anything can be overwhelming, but you have a lot of major awesome things going on especially school. Keep your focus on your goals, but remember, you need to take a break for yourself. When I'm overwhelmed and i forget to take time to breathe, my world starts collapsing. So when that happens, I need a help. I ask my sister to help me with my twins and I just sit in the other room, doors closed, eyes closed and listening to music. I think you're doing awesome, like i said before. Just keep doing your best and don't forget to get some time for you. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Sending encouragement, hope and hugs.

[Lostinside in reply to Mikam1967]

Thank you a lot. It's hard to appreciate myself for the work I put in.