Hi there, I'm new here. I've been looking for a supportive group for a while now, so I'm giving this place a shot.
The anxiety I feel is getting worse and worse. I've been dealing with this since I was a child, and I can say for a fact that it causes most of my depression. They are a dangerous pair. I'm utterly alone, I've tried to reach out to people, but all my attempts were dismissed, and I felt like I was getting all worked up for no reason. Which seems to make it more difficult to put myself out there.
This definitely got worse with covid, and I'm starting to slowly give up on the idea of even having friends. I see open spaces that I could give me opportunities to do so, but I freeze up and ultimately give up on the idea altogether.
I'm in college right now and hoping that in the future, my career would give me a sense of purpose. But this pain right now is so hard to deal with. Thank you for reading.