I was thinking how people litterary dissmiss me as a mental health proffesional, academic and volunteer just because i have problems. And my problems are there. They are all around me. For the sake of - we all have problems, even common problems like the pandemic. Show me a person without problems. But people dissmiss me as a psychology student because i have anxiety. Karens (not real, just the metaphor meme ladies) tell me "How can you be a psychology student when you have issues?". Well, dear, you're claiming to be a psychologist just because you took some course because you're a bored housewife that is made to feel inferior (by your husband, dad, religion, society, Disney, mythological people and creatures that might have lived centuries ago). And it's not your fault. I feel sorry for you. It's breaking my heart that wants equal human rights. Litterary everyone can take courses. All kind of courses. Even majors sometimes. If you pay, you're in. And they're really brief and short-lasting. They don't give a damn whether you have a degree or real scientific experience. So we real psychology students study for 6 years, just for someone with a course to come and convince you everything is alright and tell you what you want to hear. There's no law or rule regulating this, at least not here. But i don't think in other countries they make differences between all the types of proffesionals and even not proffesionals. Some people be just there, telling you what you want to hear. Meanwhile real some psychologists are invalidated just because they had struggles. Don't doctors get sick? If a doctor gets sick will you go to the local shaman? Dissmising all the years the doctor studied? Believing in sugar-coated short term relief. If your car is broke and the Red light is blinking will you go to repair your car or put a mixtape over the light so you don't see it? Let me tell you - i have seen many inadequate people claiming to help. And it's because they don't know what it's like to feel this way. I'm sorry but a "normal" person couldn't understand. And i know a person Who was in a mental hospital. She's now working in a hospital and she's the most dedicated to Clinical psychology person i have ever met. My dad's coisin had anorexia and shizophrenia and now she's a doctor saving lives. Because they care. And they know what it is like. Because they care to study it. I was there, i know how much they studied. In real universities. And yes, they have issues but i trust them with my life. Those are real people who went through real university and got real degrees and put real efforts. And people believe some Karens who got a course. Or read a book. And tell you to snap out of it. They have issues themselves too but most are just pure ignorance and dis-empowerment. And i think they're betraying themselves taking those courses and "helping" people. And one more thing - everyone has issues, i'm just brave enough (or stupid enough to confess them, my hands in deck, my cards on the table, hate me If you want to, but i prefer to be honest and do what's best for you, instead of acting like everything is Sugar spice while i'm slowly abomination you. I won't do that. Because i have been there. Because i care.). The thing is that there are no rules or restrictions but there is stigma. Misleading people. But i don't want to judge (even though i might have done it. But i done it open.). Dawkins is a biologist but his theory applies to humans too - a system without rules cause disstress and/or abuse of the system and the partisipants. And i think that's why so many of us have social anxiety. I have terrible social anxiety. I was really scared to talk in school. Because in school there were no rules, i wasn't protected. Meanwhile in university i talk so much that people can't believe i have social anxiety. And i tell them i have just to break their stigma. I confess my issues, If this makes me the bad guy okay, thank me later. Just know i'm dedicated. I'm dedicated to what i do. I dropped out of school and still i studied on my own because i knew i wanted to go to university and be a psychology student. This has been my guiding light, my goal and only hope. I went through hell the last 2 years and i'm an A student with 2 publications. You know you're dedicated when you want to kill self but instead you write a referate about it. And get A on it. When your country is poor but is litterary paying 2/3 of the university fee so you can study because you took the exams and they saw something in you. And yes we have issues. Right now i'm freaking out my mom might abuse my sister when i move out to work as a mental health volunteer. I'm worried for sister and who's gonna protect her and take care of her. I'm worried i might Come back and she will be grown up. Because she has to. She has no choice. She has to take care of herself. And so do i. And i'm worried there i probably won't be able to. Probably some days i won't feel like doing groseries and will stay there hungry, alone, scared, misunderstood, cold. I'm scared. I'm scared of the people and the new city. I'm scared of my roommates, i have social anxiety and i'm even more scared when they do parties. But see this fear does not have right to invalidate me. No, i go through this. I learn. I deal with it. I confess it. Even though i can be judged and i will be judged. But damn If it can help someone gain some insights or feel seen, it's worth it. It's worth it to be the voice of the mute. Because most people won't say this for their own good. So i will and let it happen whatever happen. When the kingdom has surrendered, all lands plundered, there's nothing left to lose. My dad used to say this when we were playing Knights of honour. Long time ago. He judged me a lot. But i miss it. Anyway not being okay, is okay. It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society. - J. Krishnamurti
Thanks for coming to my TED Talk. I even did referenses as they teach us in university for writing academic works. Remember psychology is a science.
Greetings, RM
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