isolation

[villageseeker]

hey, I don't even know what to say. I've been pretty lonely for a really long time, been depressed too. I think it's a huge part of the reason I suck at forming relationships/connections with people. I isolate when I get too stressed or depressed. I want connection so badly, I want friends and people to talk to. But I always seem to sabotage myself. I've tried so many times but I always end up isolating and hurting people in the end. That's the last thing I want, it's just hard when no one in your life understands your depression or even seem to notice you're struggling. It's like I'm invisible and maybe that's part of why I isolate, because I never feel seen. I'm 18, a college student. I don't know what I'm expecting from this, I guess I just want someone to relate to and talk to. I guess I just want to feel seen. I just needed to put that out there. I have literally no one in my life that I feel would understand or take this seriously. Anyways, take care.

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You've taken the first steps and realised that you are isolating yourself. I have done this myself in the past so your not alone.

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I’m a lot older than you, but loneliness is tough for everyone. I’ve heard that it’s an epidemic now, along with Covid which I hope and pray to God would get controlled somehow and everyone can get a break from worrying about the next variant. These days I sometimes feel like I can connect more with someone online than someone I randomly meet in person, it’s just the weirdest thing!!! Sometimes you try to strike up a conversation with someone you think seems approachable and when you just get met with a cold stare and silence you can feel like did I do something wrong??!!! Hope your classes are going all right.