New /Anxiety ongoing

[Catt02]

New here, just having another rough day. Social anxiety ruined any kind of life I could have had, everyone is gone now in the family, no fond memories, no means ahead. Am on disability, with my cat, unconventional relationship. Also going through Benzo w/d, 5 years off Klonopin. On several psych meds, addictions, I dread everyday I wake up.

[Agora1]

Welcome Catt02 to a safe and caring support group.I'm happy you are here with us. As you read other's posts

and responses, you will see tht you aren't alone. We all

feel your pain and reach out to you. We are but a message away xx

[samack]

I can share in the social anxiety ruining life. My sweet cat passed away a couple of weeks ago and he was my lifeline. Lots of similar feelings. I have to move into the present and as they say, learn self compassion. Somedays are very hard to bear, but I have to float instead of fight. This is probably as cliche as it gets. Mostly, know you are not alone

[Catt02 in reply to samack]

My deepest condolences for the loss of your furry precious one. I know how heartbreaking it can be. In fact I lost 2 cats in 2015 and couldn't recover, attempted my life in 2016. They are family and I've always taken it hard. But then, I'd lost the rest of my family just prior and hadn't processed saying goodbye to them either. Had, heart surgery also, lost my job, career, car accident total, back surgery, recovered Opioids, locked up in MH facilities 4 times, 2 attempts, lost brother to suicide, finally quit Benzos 5+ yrs ago 30 day rapid detox, still a nightmare. You are very strong to be still in the present moment, stay focused on now. I used to meditate but the Benzos took that from me. Made more than my share of wrong choices, mistakes, now I'm left with the damages. It's been and still is a head-on humbling experience I've gone through, one day to the next.

[samack]

What a life some of us have survived. You are an A1 survivor as it takes someone strong to survive so so many losses. I hope things even out for you. Thank you for your condolences. My cat took half my heart with him.