Severe anxiety and depression

[Tryingtogetby01]

dealing with severe anxiety and depression

Getting TMS but it’s getting worse

It’s screwing up my life and my marriage

Need my meds but the dr hasn’t called it in yet

Up all night and trying function but it’s not working

[gajh]

Hello and Welcome. There is so much support available here. I am glad you have joined us.

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to gajh]

Thanks for the reply I’m so anxious and have been through this 3 times earlier this year

Nothing seems to help for the long term

[gajh in reply to Tryingtogetby01]

How many more TMS treatments do you have left? I really hope it brings you relief. Did you get your meds yet?

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to gajh]

I got my meds, I have 5 more treatments

I woke up ok but then three anxiety is back

[gajh in reply to Tryingtogetby01]

5 more is a good amount. Some people say it doesn't help until after you have completed all of the treatment. Hopefully after the 5 you will notice an improvement.

What coping skills do you use to help with the anxiety?

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to gajh]

Not to many good ones I try breathing going on hikes but other than sleep when I can but I sleep too much

[gajh in reply to Tryingtogetby01]

Have you ever tried meditation? It doesn't help me, but I know it really helps some people.

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to gajh]

Yeah I’ve tried it but my monkey brain takes over been to quite a few meditation groups but need it explained to me in a way that works for me

[gajh in reply to Tryingtogetby01]

I did the Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction 8 week program by Jon Kabat Zinn. I did it much longer than 8 weeks. I did better with the body scan meditation rather than the regular meditation. I did not find it beneficial though, so I have not continued.

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to gajh]

And note it’s difficult to perform in bed and the there is willing to try just don’t get excited enough to work going to the physchiatrist Wednesday maybe she’ll give me some viagara

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to gajh]

I woke up ok but couldn’t make it to work and feeling the worse for it

[jikreamer]

Hello friend, I too suffer from major depression. Meds haven't helped and I struggle terribly. I have considered TMS and am interested how things go for you going forward. All we can do on our darkest days is live from minute to minute and keep hope alive. I am a strong Christian and Jesus and scripture help me a lot. I do sleep good so that really helps me as well. God bless you and I will pray for you.

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to jikreamer]

Thanks for the reply

I’m not religious maybe I need to be

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to Tryingtogetby01]

I’m probably going to feel the effects after treatment or I hope it does

Have a session where I was done and left and felt marginally better

[Tracey0101 in reply to Tryingtogetby01]

If you want to be one of God's children I pray for you God loves you and wants the best for you if you choose that you want him in your life just ask him to come into your life and ask him to forgive you for your sin and he will forgive you for everything and thank him for the forgiveness and for being in your life now and pray each day and read the bible there are apps you can read from the bible kjv is the best bible and listening to preaching and listen to praise songs and if you can find a church that can help as well

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to Tracey0101]

Thanks for you support and suggestions anything to get through this for the long term

[Tracey0101 in reply to Tryingtogetby01]

I understand and I hope it helps you just get through these difficult times but just remember you are beautiful just the way you are and except you as you. I do colouring letters and I give the donations for mental health learning disabilities and autistic charity and not in my wildest dream could I ever do something like this and I went through being mentally ill and I started these colouring letters through my autistic leader who encouraged me to get back to colouring as I always have a lovely gift for colouring since very young child but to do colouring letters no way in my wildest dream could I ever do this and I have done over 1,000 plus now and it's such amazing that could ever imagine I wanted to put love in the world and make a big difference to many people and they are we are so broken like broken pieces and that we cannot fixed ourselves or anyone cannot but God can heal our broken pieces and these colouring letters are so beautiful and lovely and done with love, joy and happiness and has given hope and peace and have helped so many people and given them blessings and so much since I started these just over 1yr and 5mths and hearing about them when I do them for others on request I do them and when I don't get any request I continue doing spare ones just in case I get lots of requests and because I have autism I can get overloaded if I get too much all at once. I love doing the colouring letters and I laminate them as well they are beautiful and lovely just like all the beautiful colours and the joy of putting the colours in place that God was the one that gave me my purpose in doing something beautiful and special to give to the world because God has helped me and given me so much and through professionals as well as others and I have gained so much and I have been on a very difficult road all my life and still am but to still do something bigger is the best thing I can use my gift in this world to make a difference to others. To put lovle in action in this world is the purpose and forgive each other and love each other and build each other up and not put them down we are all human and we make mistakes and don't always say the right and good things and we get it wrong but just because we get it wrong doesn't mean that we can be put down or put others down when they get it wrong or when we get it wrong forgive each other and love each other

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to Tracey0101]

Besides religion what’s else has helped?

[Tracey0101 in reply to Tryingtogetby01]

For me nothing else has helped me but I can't speak for others as everyone is different as it depends what you choose to do and believe in

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to Tracey0101]

for me I have excess baggage from my 1st marriage and maybe a little from one of my ok old girlfriends

Going to be difficult to go to work tomorrow

[Tracey0101 in reply to Tryingtogetby01]

I understand how difficult it is I have 2 bad marriages and my older sister baggage with my mum and a friend I lost in death and a friend I lost not in death and I lost my son in foster care as well which is very painful too and I lost my dad in death. My older sister who didn't want me and couldn't accept me as a baby and still doesn't accept me and I got physically and emotionally and mentally abused by her socially and financially as well verbal abuse as well. I fully understand how it feels and been socially abused by my first husband which I almost died with that badly attack. I do fully understand how you must feel.

[Tracey0101 in reply to Tracey0101]

I meant sexually abused as I got attacked badly by him

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to Tracey0101]

I can’t image having thought off sexually abusing someone that would be a huge signal to get help

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to Tracey0101]

I thought I dealt with my baggage and when these anxiety starts up the baggage come out and how I was treated during those time

[Tracey0101 in reply to Tryingtogetby01]

Me too and I have had lots of help and support with my stuff and I psychotherapy as well and a lot of it but it wasn't dealt with the way it needed to be but can't disclose this information. I am going to have psychology and see a psychiatrist as well now as I have a care coordinator from the learning disability team helping me with stuff someone gave me a white 6 drawer cupboard and though its lovely I last night put a note on it to hide it as I was really worried about what my carer would think of me about having something from a friend a resident from my building I live in and I thought I would be in trouble for having it. I relized where that came from my carer said its really lovely cupboard I agree with her it is but the fact was that I hid it because I was worried about having something lovely and that was my sister sneaking inside my head that you can't have that you will be in trouble by mum and dad but it was a lies from the enemy and I shouldn't of believed it but we all make mistakes and believe lies instead of believing the truth but my self-esteem isn't great at the moment and I worried about what people think of me. I need to accept me as I am and not what others think about me. I relized that I used to hide things that I bought when I was younger just in case I get in trouble with my mum and my older sister was my worse enemy she would put me down on anything that I bought in the shops even if I bought chocolate bar or a can of cola she didn't like me buying so if I seen her or any members of my family or my mum's family I would hide away if I seen them so that they didn't see me and when I seen them leave I would then go into the shop once I knew that they had left the shop. My mum embarrassed me in tescos and spoke top of her voice when I was at school and my class was going to tescos to do a project on certain ingredients in certain products and I felt very anxious when the teacher said we are going to tescos in the shop I was going I just knew before I went that my mum would come into tescos and I seen her oh no what do I do I tried to hide in the corner where the teacher was but my mum seen me and I felt so embarrassed and I knew my mum she would just say out loud what are you doing here what are you doing here even though she seen staff my class children with me she didn't understand why I was not at school but the Teacher said we are doing a project in tescos on food ingredients today but it was very embarrassing her raising her voice in tescos with other children with me and other customers in tescos and staff of tescos as well I have never been so embarrassed as this my mum wasn't quiet about me if she seen me everyone at to hear it and hear her loudly as well. I felt like a fool . Very scary to be honest.

[Adlon57 in reply to Tryingtogetby01]

I'm in the same plight, tight as a violin string, tried meditation, in one ear out the other, religion seems to rule the roost where I come from, part of the problem more than anything else, maybe too much prescribed medication over my lifetime, thus weird reactions, I'm retired, so no work thus in theory no stress, but I'm still very tight! maybe I need a complete change, but where and what?

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to Adlon57]

I’m not religious and don’t think I’m old enough to retire not sure that would help just me more time to ruminate

[Adlon57 in reply to Tryingtogetby01]

Religion is not all they go on about, I'm retired and it gets stuffed down mine more, ruminate on another road, good luck in trying to find it👍

[Tracey0101 in reply to jikreamer]

Me too and prayers are powerful with God in our lives without it it is much more difficult as we don't have God in our situations and difficulties without God but with God we do. I wouldn't say God answers every single prayer he can but sometimes he says no as if he answered everyone prayers then we would never hear him say no and there wouldn't be a purpose in our lives with God if he did it and also he God healed every single person we would never die and we would live in this world forever as it is today rather than go to a beautiful place called heaven and to be with God forever and ever with no pain or no death forever for those who are God's children. This is true God is true.

[CatLaxy68]

Hope you got your meds. Anxiety and depression are so hard to function with, especially when they are severe. I get tired just doing laundry. I hope it lifts.

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to CatLaxy68]

Hi they keep saying you just gotta put your feet on the ground and start

It’s so hard to start

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to CatLaxy68]

I couldn’t make it to work today

I woke up ok just couldn’t fast in the car

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to CatLaxy68]

I ended up leaving work early today anxiety and depression were taking over my life I’m feeling a bit better more but for long who knows

[Tracey0101]

Easy said than done I also struggling to start life again after going through bipolar back in April this year and now I have a care coordinator from the learning disability going to help me with getting back to start life again it's really difficult to overcome but to say to someone especially when it's a professional you can't just do it sometimes we need extra help and support to do it as I described it like very thick and dry solid mud that haven't been watered for so long and we are in the very dry solid mud and can't move one bit as it's so solid that you can't do anything to move out from it.

[Tryingtogetby01]

the bad anxiety is starting up when I’m thinking about work tomorrow

Taken my meds but the only last for a few hours

[Darkangst in reply to Tryingtogetby01]

i can completely relate to this. I wake up being anxious about anxious. And today has been really bad.

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to Darkangst]

I usually give in and stay home so frustrating to live like this there has to be better support available

[Tryingtogetby01 in reply to Darkangst]

Going to talk to psychiatrist about getting something stronger for the anxiety today

Hopefully she’ll listen

[Tryingtogetby01]

not doing very good today

Taking my meds but anxious about going to work tomorrow

Don’t have anyone to talk to about it

So Friday frustrating an depressing