Can't get these thoughts out of my head.
Can't make these feelings(symptoms) go away.
Crying every day up to 4-5 times a day , even more so when I think back to all the fun times we had together as a family, while something deep inside is ripping my heart into shreds while screaming "your going to die".
Hi. I'm so very sorry that you feel like this. I read some more of your posts to get some more info before replying. You have health anxiety, right? As I do not have health anxiety, I won't comment on that.I do want to leave you with something, though. Your first 2 sentences stand out to me. My doctor told me not to try and make my negative symptoms/feelings go away. He said that doing so can actually worsen them. He said to let them come and try not to be afraid of them. We as humans hate being uncomfortable, so it comes as no surprise that we try and force normality. Part of my treatment is learning to be okay with where I'm at. My doctor is also trying to get me away from going into the past and the "what was". We can't change that which has already happened. We cannot control what has already happened. We can only control what happens from today onwards.
I hope this helps somewhat.🙂
I don’t know how to help. You have to try to help yourself the best you can. Maybe you should consider checking into some kind of psychiatric ward. There’s only so much we can do on here.
I would , but I have to be home for our children , our son gets home from school after 3 and our daughter is homeschooling due to covid.
Sometimes we just have to sit with the pain until it releases. Once you do that, the pain is gone. Try focusing on now, that s really all there is.
I feel your pain. Are you in therapy, trying meds. Exercise. Journaling.?
I hope you feel better, some days are worse than others for all of us.
It will get better.
Future thoughts
Fearing the future
Uncertain future 
A better future
Scared of the future 
