Letting out my feelings

[tm23l]

I’m not really new here, but this is the first time in a couple years I’ve used my account. I’m feel like I have wasted all my potential in life. It’s hard to wake up in the morning and realizing that I don’t have anything worthwhile in life. I don’t have a job, any dreams or aspirations, or any friends. I’ll be 24 in a couple of weeks and don’t like my life. I can’t even get out of bed till 1pm. There is no enjoyment in my life anymore. There hasn’t been much enjoyment in years. I’ve been like this for 8 years and don’t think I can change it. Every time I’ve tried, I’ve failed. I want to enjoy the things I used to before depression: writing, reading, and playing music. I wish I had someone to talk to. I want to feel loved. So many people tell me that they love me, but it just feels hollow. I just want to feel loved and that someone cares about me..

[Hidden]

You haven't wasted your potential. You have plenty of time to change things. I didn't really get anywhere in life until I was 28.

[hypercat54 in reply to Hidden]

Me neither.

[hypercat54]

Ah bless you- 23 and feel you have wasted your potential in life! It might seem 'old' to you but trust me you have many years yet to do anything you wish to.

The standard treatments for depression are meds and therapy. Have you tried either of these yet? If so have they helped? I could say a lot more about myself at your age which might help you but won't because your post isn't locked.

[tm23l in reply to hypercat54]

Thank you! I don’t consider myself to be old at all. I think it’s just frustrating that I have such a hard time setting goals for myself when I don’t have any dreams for myself to help figure out what those goals are.Especially when everybody keeps bothering me to make a move in my life. I just expected that by this point in my life, I could at least say I have a friend or someone to talk to or be skilled at something.

I’m looking for therapy but the process is a bit scary cause I feel I’m going through it alone with no support.

[designguy]

hello tm, I'm going to tell you what I wish someone had told to me years ago and made clear to me which is that "life is an inside job not an outside one". It sounds like for whatever reason(s) you've had trouble loving yourself and have low-self-worth, which is pretty common. Most of us were never taught how to do it and even shamed for it and we live in a society and culture that is externally focused. You might look into some youtube videos, books or programs about raising your self-worth and self-acceptance and see if it makes a difference. I personally have found the writings and programs by Dr. Bernadette Sewell to be helpful. Best to you.