Grateful for social workers and need strength to go on

[Caseopia]

My life just flipped upside down. Found my boyfriend cheating on me 2 nights ago with who I thought was a friend. Now im living in a motel (tonight is first night)and hoping to find somewhere soon. I haven't been alone in a long time. I can't sleep. Its too quiet and I'm scared to turn out the lights. But I'm grateful for the help i'm getting from mental health organizations and social services and will be forever grateful. I have to tell myself I can get through this and I'll be ok. Possibly better than I've been in a long time as my depression and ptsd has been severe lately. I have hope. I didn't think that was possible.

[Hidden]

I'm so sorry to hear this. How betraying for you. I am glad to hear that you have hope, though! What's even more awesome is hearing you say that you didn't think that was possible! That must be such a great feeling for you! Long may it live!

[Caseopia in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much for your feedback. I'm trying so hard to get through this but it's only day 2 so I know I'm going to hurt

[Hidden in reply to Caseopia]

You're welcome 😊 I really admire your investment in yourself and your wellbeing! After 2 days, too! Damn, girl, you are AWESOME!!

[Caseopia in reply to Hidden]

Wow thank you. I just started crying but only because I'm trying to believe that. And i will keep telling myself that. I just put some affirmations in my wallet so I see it daily. I'm working hard on coping and doing the foot work to survive. If I don't use coping skills, I'll end back up in a psych hospital.

[Hidden in reply to Caseopia]

You're welcome 😊. Now for the lighthearted stuff:

You carry around affirmations?! And in your wallet where you can get to them easily?! Daannngggg! Stop making me feel so bad. Sheesh🤦‍♀️

Here's a day in the life of my coping skills:

"They've gotta be here someplace".

Hope I made you smile!

[Caseopia in reply to Hidden]

You totally made me smile

[Hidden in reply to Caseopia]

Hi again!Funny happenings today (well, as fun as life in a hospital can be):

I had a blood test this morning. Right before doing her thing, the doctor excused her cold hands. I said, "I'm ok w....DAMN!! That's COLD!!!!"

The test was taking awhile, so I asked her if she would please leave some blood in me because I needed it. I thanked her afterward for taking my blood and told her to take care of it.

On the way back to my toom, I told my nurse, "she took my blood. I didn't ask her to take it. She just took it. How rude".

I had the nurses in stitches. I hope I made you smile today!😊

[Caseopia in reply to Hidden]

That made my smile

[Shnookie]

I totally agree with Norw. It’s so positive that U reached out to mental health and social services and especially that U HAVEHOPE 4 a better future. U go girl !!

I’m here 4 U.

Hugs 🤗 Shnookie ❤️😎💪👠💃🏼💄🎊

[Caseopia in reply to Shnookie]

I had no idea how much mental health association and social services could help. It's a blessing. And thank you for your reply. I need to hear I'm not alone. Because I feel very alone right now

[Shnookie in reply to Caseopia]

Please know that U have me and Norw. U can also personally message me. Do U have other people U can reach out to ?

Also please check out the

Health Unlocked websites. There is a list of other support groups I.e.

possible relationships. There is also

NAMI - please go online -

Peer mentor - mental health support hotline. I use them and they R helpful.

U will come out stronger from this. I’m here for U

[Caseopia in reply to Shnookie]

Thank you for that information. I'll message you if I can figure it out

[Shnookie in reply to Caseopia]

Sounds good

[Arymretep]

Sorry to hear that, but you have shown that you can do this, you are strong, well done you 😘 you are not alone we are all here for you

[Caseopia in reply to Arymretep]

Thank you so much

[bethelbee]

Sorry you have to deal with this, but it sounds like you are strong and have some good coping skills in place. Yes, you will hurt for a while. It's ok to not be ok. We are here for you. As someone else mentioned I have also used a peer support helpline and it was helpful. Have also used the crisis support hotline when needed and that was really helpful. ADAA website may also be a good resource in addition to what's listed above in another post. Glad to hear you have hope, that's a good sign! Keep us posted and take good care of yourself. My therapist is always telling me to nurture myself.