Fuming give up hope now

[Di01]

So ive been on meds for anxiety/depresstion and to control this fnd most anti depressants that ive tried all give me so many bad side effects i heard of tms treatment this i thought is my only hope but after filling in forms and waiting they turned me down on the bases check this i had tattoos on my back

Now looks like im back to trying every anti depressant going again another christmas stuck in a horrible mind set and a body that doesnt feel right im scared i cant do anymore crying all day and dont wanna be putting my self thru another yr of tablets trying to find one that fits when they all do the same to me most of the day im wishing my heart would just stop and put me out of this suffering

[Marysblue]

There are a few natural antidepressants that don't have many side effects. St John's wort, 5htp, lmethyfolate. Have you tried these, Look them up.

I hope things look a little better for you soon. Things can get better.

[Di01 in reply to Marysblue]

No i havent tried these wouldnt kno where to start looking for them just dont think my body is capable of handing meds even a pain killer knocks me out cold as in to sleep so much going on with my body i dont mind being in pain or getting tired so fast just cant stand the crying fits and my brain not functioning proper dealing with 3 things going on with it fibo,fnd,menopause with all that comes depression i had my heart set on tms so i didnt have to put myself thru another yr of trying to find a med because my brain doesnt kno if its coming or going side effects on them then side effect coming off them spent a full yr house bound just feel im getting kno where fast and how can u enjoy ya life when all ur body mind is letting u down feel brain dead mind body at the point of crying my life way thats all i have now

[Marysblue in reply to Di01]

Google them, are at Any drug store or Walmart or Amazon.

I was where you're at 10 years ago, in terrible pain. There is hope. you can get better. I got off pain pills , klonopin,,began walking again, quit alc. I've been on 4 Alieve for pain each day.

Pain pills cause pain and they mess up your brain. I got so miserable I was ready to make changes.

[Di01 in reply to Marysblue]

Yh i've been putting up with the joint pain howeva tiredness and headaches different story maybe i need to change some of my diet or try natural stuff but was hoping my body would just go back to normal at some point thanks for the advice everyone has been good in giving some kinda of push not to give up but once ur tired of it hard to see any kinda of light thanks again x

[Indiegal]

Maybe talk to your doctor or therapist about some alternatives to meds to supplement for better results. Adding exercise, meditation and other treatments may seem like nothing but they can help improve your symptoms.

[Di01 in reply to Indiegal]

Been under the drs care for 18 months all the support ive had is talking thru how i feel this doesnt take the pain way or make me feel less tired its me trapped in it and all they eva wanna do is chuck meds at me no wonder so many people take there iwn lifes because until ur in that horrible body and mind there is no way out its like ground hog day everyday limited to exercise when ur in pain and when ya brain has no get up and go u just wanna sit here and cry to the point ur thoughts of doom cave in that how can u go on like this 18 months ive battled in my head to not to hurt myself yet everyday i'm still wanting to be out of thses horrible conditions

[samack]

I know where you are coming from. I've been treatment resistant for over 4 years. Not a day of peace. All the trials on and off, up and down doses. Its painful. I just now found a regiment that works for me. I am so grateful. I don't believe you will take as long. Drs.chuck meds. Therapists work with you. TMS is no panacea. 2 possibilities: thyroid,if low, they give you med that actually works like an antidepressant. It worked great for my depression but My thyroid is normal, so it pushed too high.

Modafinil off label is an antidepressant and works well, albeit I had to come off due to side effects.

Use this site to help support you. I wanted to end it all many times. I don't know how I kept going on feeling just like you describe.. Now I have a second chance at healing my life. My heart goes out to you.

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[Di01]

Honestly dont kno how ive not ended it yet feel like a caged aminal thats been neglected body shut down cant move and all the crying dizz spells headaches pains make me more h8ting every min of beong stuck cant even push myself brain just feels dead not a single day goes by where i have any engery to do anything good 😭😭😭 i just want to dig my own grave and lie to rest eventho that sounds selfish i just give up on myself