Uncertainty at its finest

[Mom_on_the_run]

work/mom life balance normally keeps me busy with little time to let my mind wonder but lately work has slowed down and it’s made me so uneasy.

My nightmares are back and no matter how much I try to overcome I just can’t shake this overwhelming feeling of uncertainty. I start having dreams of being trapped in a box and can’t call for help or I dream of being stuck in a car and people outside are after me.. I tell myself I’m fine everything will be alright but this feeling is just not going away. No matter how hard I fight it.

I continuously get anxiety while I’m at work and have to excuse myself and take a break. I know how hard I’ve worked to overcome this but I feel shameful everytime it comes back…

I can’t help but wonder when will I be able to breathe again

[AndrewT]

Dear Mom_on_the_run,

can I, very Respectfully, ask you to carefully re-read your own 'Post'.... Are you 'seeing' a, diligent, caring, loving Mother/ Woman- with just 'Far Too Many' Balls in the air? Because I am!

The 'Boxes' is your own Consciousness are trying to Tell You Something....Let Me Out! The 'Feeling Of Dread' a, Mixture of your Current Worries AND 'What You Might Take On Next'.....

My advice, brutal as it may seem, is Let Some Balls Land- or let someone 'Else' Take a Few, for you. If you feel 'Trapped', in the Car then OPEN the Door. No-one else CAN Open that Door, whilst YOU are 'Holding' it so tight!

Your NOT a Bad Person, quite the Reverse in fact..... You have just Overstretched yourself, tried to be 'All Things To All People', WELL DONE You Are A Star, no you Really are.

However the time, has NOW come, to 'Let Go' a BIT (Read A LOT).... Mandy Will 'collect' Chloe, Brian Will Take The Car In, Simon DOES know 'what he is Doing' regarding Heather and No-Body ever 'Died' from Missing a Shower! Am I making Sense, to you 'Mom_on_the_run?

Please don't think that I'm 'Having A Go', at you, it's NOT 'that' at all...I'm just trying to Help you To SEE, what your own Subconscious is literally Screaming at you.

Allocate Yourself some 'ME TIME', tell 'Sharon' to get a Take Away, and then sit/ lay in bed, or the bath, and RELAX- let the phone ring, for once. Let your Big/ Loving Wolfhound 'cuddle up', let the Cat stretch out, let Grandma sleep- it's 'only' a bit of wee..... Give your Mind a 'Chance' to Catch Up- if it is then Three Hours later, so be it.

Anyway I've 'Rambled On' quite Long enough, and hopefully NOT Offended you babe. Please know that ALL our 'collective' Love is with you- and since it is now December

Merry Christmas

AndrewT

[Mom_on_the_run in reply to AndrewT]

AndrewT… I understand where the root of my issue is.. childhood trauma continues to affect me subconsciously whenever I am faced with a potential loss in income or at least when my subconscious feels like I’ll potentially lose income and consequently end up homeless again.

I was simply allowing my thoughts to come out which is what I thought this page was all about..

I struggle with anxiety and depression which spikes more under pressure I guess by sharing I was hoping someone else would share their similar situations and provide some reassurance BUT you sir are a bit harsh.. perhaps next time try being a bit more gentle.. the world needs more kindness…

[AndrewT in reply to Mom_on_the_run]

Dear Mom_on_the_run,

Please accept my heartfelt apology, I NEVER intended to be Harsh. Clearly I have mis-interpreted your question- in my Defence I, really did, have your Best Interests 'at heart'.

Please let me say, once again, Sorry that I offended you.

AndrewT