I don't know....

[Lookingforhope20100]

I just dropped my grandma off at the hospital they looked at me and said prepare for the worst. They don't think she is going to be alive much longer and she is all I have let and yet I haven't cried for her why haven't I cried... She told me while she was in the hospital it was my job to take care of the family my brother isn't helping he won't even lend me$20 to buy pizza for the house HE lives in so I have to use my money that I have saved and that was supposed to be used to fix my car. I don't know how to feel I guess I feel empty and man I want to go back to smoking a cigarette sounds so good but on a positive note I told my bf and he didn't hate me

[Megapanda]

Hello . I am so sorry you are going through this . Being told to prepare for the worst is such a hard thing to hear . Especially when it's someone you are so close to. I wouldn't give much thought in how you react (not crying). Everyone deals differently and there is no right or wrong way . Sometimes things take time to process and you can get a delayed reaction to bad news . I am sorry that your brother is being less than helpful . But I am glad you have your boyfriend there . My thoughts are with you 💕Please take care 🐼

[Shnookie]

Please don’t be hard on yourself. You might Express all type of emotions re your grandma. At one time I would break down in tears if I was affected by something painful to me. When my mom died after being her caregiver for pancreatic cancer, I felt numb. Though I would have preferred crying, I needed to deal with my emotions in another way. I’m here 4 U. U can personally message me

Hugs 🤗 Shnookie

[Midori]

Why are you buying pizza for your brother? let him buy his own and carry on saving to fix your car.

Your brother doesn't live with you. If he is not helping while your Grandma is in hospital you owe him nothing.

Just do what needs doing.

I'm sorry your gran is sick, but you need hope.

Cheers,Midori