Drowning

[Darklight_465]

I haven't been here for a while. But hey im just confused life has been ehh I stop taking my meds for a while because they weren't working. But they changed them and life was looking up. But as soon as it does everything crumbles and I feel I cant tell anybody I tell my partner part of it but I don't want to put him through to much. to give a little background my grandma is getting surgery for her cancer this tuesday and my dad is having heart surgery on december 15 and then my mom just got diagnosed with a tumor on her breast. Im the only person that knows about my mom and dad condition so I feel like it crushing me and I dont wanna talk to them about it because I dont want them to think they cant count on me.

[Hb2003]

Aww I’m so sorry about that lots of kindness love and support to you Joss ❤️❤️🫂

[Darklight_465 in reply to Hb2003]

thank you ❤️ I missed being here I alway feel supported

[Hb2003 in reply to Darklight_465]

Your welcome 🙏 😊 that’s why I like this place makes you feel welcomed and supported ☺️

[Sabbath1]

Sorry you're going through so much. There's lots of support here

[Darklight_465 in reply to Sabbath1]

thank you so much ! you all make me feel stronger ❤️❤️❤️

[seeder]

Wow! Joss, how do you do it??

That's an awful lot to manage and be dealing with.

You are positively inspirational.

But remember to keep looking after yourself and loving yourself.

It is important. 🙂

(And thanks! I was just awake and feeling pretty down on myself. Dragging myself through my email box with a heavy heart at the start of a new week. Chanced upon your entry and, you know what?? I've got it easy compared to so many. Thanks for reminding me!)

Do share though. Good for you and also touches others too.

Thanks and may you go well. 🙏

[Darklight_465 in reply to seeder]

Thank you! Its draining but I try to see the positive. Im not ready for tomorrow. I just wanna turn my emotions off but if I do that I just will go slowly into a spiral and hit a low point of depression and im trying to avoid that. So i here to keep myself from bottling everything up to the point where I feel empty. But im hanging in thank you for the support ❤️❤️❤️

[Midori]

Talk to us; it's what we are here for.

Cheers,Midori

[Darklight_465 in reply to Midori]

aww thank you ! ahh im emotionally tired, physically and mentally but im trying to stay positive!

[Midori]

Think of us as your cheerleading squad!

[Darklight_465 in reply to Midori]

aww thank you 🙃🤗 I always feel supporteded here you all make me feel like im not alone

[Daveacr1959]

You are perfectly normal. The 3 people you love are battling scary illness and surgery. Get 6-8 hours of sleep each night. 30-60 minutes of daily cardio exercise to produce endorphins. And the game changer for me is the Wim Hof guided breathing exercises free on you tube. I do it 2-3 times a day. I also take 1-2 cold showers daily. I personally think 75 percent of the people in the world are scared of what you are going through now . The other 25 percent over 80 years old, probably not as scared.

[Darklight_465 in reply to Daveacr1959]

Thank you. I definitely need to improve my sleeping schedule. Also need to get back into meditation. Thank you so much !!