Divorcing /Angry/ Sad/ Relieved/ Over it

[Artemis38]

I'm extremely anxious. My anxiety is to the point where I'm itching all over and it feels like I have bugs crawling on my skin. I'm beginning my divorce process. I have mixed feelings about it. I feel hurt and angry because he walked out on me after the chances I gave him. In June of this of this year during my last miscarriage he refused to sign the divorce papers but now he wants to. I know this is a blessing from God. He has embarrassed me with his cheating all over town with men and in public places including offices where my doctors appointments were. I should be happy for him to be gone but I feel played and bamboozled because I put my all into this 2 year marriage just to be made a fool out of. The fact that he manipulated me the whole two years. Today he told me that he enjoyed manipulating his mom to get what he wants regardless of how badly it hurts her. He told me that he used me because he was lonely and thought he could be a husband and father. I'm relieved but sad, and confused.

[Roxylox]

You have my deepest sympathies. You have been hurt and misled very badly. You have been through so much.

You deserve plenty of self-care. Do keep posting if it helps.

[Artemis38 in reply to Roxylox]

Thanks so much Roxylox I think I will keep posting

[Hidden]

Hello

Everything you are feeling is normal and you will go through all these emotions this was someone you loved that you thought you were going to spend the rest of your life with that has betrayed you and treated you in such a way that is disgusting

It will be like a grieving process you will go through but try and remember the man you thought you were in love with was not the person you thought they were and look at how he turned out had you met him now and knew all this about him would you have even spoken to him let alone marry him !

I am so sorry you have got so hurt you do not deserve it at all and eventually you will move on but know you are worth so much more than this and one day you will look back and realise you do x

[Artemis38 in reply to Hidden]

BeKind28 Thanks for the guidance

[Melancholy12]

You are doing the right thing. Be thankful it’s only 2 years and not longer. It is terrible that he sounds proud of manipulating others. May you find peace soon.

[Artemis38 in reply to Melancholy12]

Melancholy12 his love of manipulating people had me at a lost for words and horrified at the same time. I feel like he was cruel to do this to me for two whole years.

[Midori]

Once a player, always a player, and he has admitted it to you. I am so sorry.

Please make sure all your finances are locked down and that he will continue to pay for any house you own together. If you haven't already, get a lawyer on it all.

I hope it works out for you. Your miscarriage was a tragedy, but now you also need to ensure you haven't caught anything from those affairs he has had.

I rather hope he ends up a lonely old man.

Cheers, Midori

[Artemis38 in reply to Midori]

Thanks I've had my rounds of std checks and I'm currently seeking legal services

[Bella_lee]

Hi @Artemis38 I'm so sorry you're having to deal with such a painful situation and my heart goes out to you. I hope and pray the near future brings healing and peace for your emotions and the love that you're worthy of. Sending you much hugs ))).

[Artemis38 in reply to Bella_lee]

Thanks for the hugs