How to get over being rejected by a close friend

[coolkitty1934]

my close friend sent me and email that read

LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE. YOU ARE A STRANGER. DO NOT REPLY TO THIS, FORGET MY ADDRESS, FORGET ME, I NEVER EXISTED. IF YOU EMAIL ME AGAIN THEN THE POLICE WILL COME INTO THIS ASWELL, BUT I DONT WANT TO DO THAT, BUT I WILL IF I HAVE TO.

PLEASE, DO NOT CONTACT ME AGAIN. YOU DO NOT KNOW ME.

and i just hate myself i dont know what i did wrong and this is not the first friend to push me away i feel like i only hurt people and im horrible because why else would so many friends leave me?

[Hidden]

Think about whether he/she deserve you

[coolkitty1934 in reply to Hidden]

i always feel like i dont deserve good friends so i cant really trust my judgement

[Hidden in reply to coolkitty1934]

If you think you're not worthy, you are. It's a simple rule. Those who are unworthy never doubt themselves

[coolkitty1934 in reply to Hidden]

i never thought of it like that..

[Hidden in reply to coolkitty1934]

These are intrusive thoughts, they aren't true. Please don't listen to them.

[coolkitty1934 in reply to Hidden]

i wish it was that easy but i have been listening and believeing these thoughts about myself for years

[Hidden in reply to coolkitty1934]

Sorry to say but you were definitely wrong about yourself for all these years. Now you can't change the past so it is better you focus on the present and more importantly on yourself.

[Against_the_current]

Yeah, kitty, i went through the same. Mfs sweared they loved me and then acted the same as yours. But hey look at me, i regained my power, i came to those conclusions and i just discussed this theme yesterday with footballlove and he seem to have learned it, referencing me

[coolkitty1934 in reply to Against_the_current]

i guess it will just take some time..

[Against_the_current in reply to coolkitty1934]

Sadly yes. This one year i went through hell and i needed help and i got some online "friends" that only took advantage of my pain, messed me up more and left. You can't imagine what kinda of dms i've got. They sweared they loved me, they wanted to take advantage of me, sent me all kind of innapropriate desires using that i'm needing help, and then left sending similar texts or without sending nothing at all. Even this guy left. Probably because i wanted to talk to you too. Did i mess up? But really i went through the same hell and i really wanted to talk to someone with similar experience.

[coolkitty1934]

then i must be really bad at picking my friends cause his happens a lot

[coolkitty1934]

who?

[Sleeplessme]

Unfortunately, the world is full of horrible people. I'm sure not everyone you're friendly with are the same though? You can't be responsible for how other people are. You can't just say you're horrible. Is there something specific you've done that's horrible? Did you sleep with your friends partner? Did you shoot their dog for a laugh? Did you steal their car? I'm sure you did none of that. If you don't know what you did wrong, and they do t tell you, then whatever it is it can't be that bad. It's on them, not you. In a similar vein to what someone above said, the fact you're concerned about it shows you're the better person.