Late night thoughts

[Heyyouthere33]

I'm 30 and my parents are both 62. Mom isn't at greatest health and my dad ok. But sometimes I think about how my life will change significantly when they pass. And I get really anxious and sad. I'm very close to both. And I see them in an almost daily basis. It's scary to think they will be physically gone one day and my whole life will change. I know im not alone because I have sisters who I'm also close with but because of my past history with panic disorder, I've not dealt well with heart break or loss of a love one( be it a bf or my grandmother dying). I dont like to think about it but I do like to go to my mom or dad when I am over whelmed or just to talk about stuff and I can't help but think about how am im going live with out them with out those talks or hugs. Makes me worried and anxious. And sometime when Im ok mentally, im think " they will still be with me spiritual and I will love them now while I have them" and im very reassured but them there are time like this.

Is this something i can prepare for?

Will I ever be ready?

[Murielle21]

You can mentally prepare but it will still be a huge shock when it actually happens. Enjoy as much time with them as you are able to and build some really happy memories. You’re wonderful because you want to be with them. There are a lot of parents who hardly ever see their children even though they may live close by because they are selfish! You’re not. Do stuff together, take lots of photos and enjoy their company.x

[designguy]

It is the paradox of life and the value and wisdom of learning to live in the moment. Our mind, especially our anxious mind, conjurers up all the thoughts and fears of future loss and pain which takes us out of the present moment which is real life and all we really have. The reality is that life is always changing and we all go through what you are facing. It doesn't make it easier and it will be very painful but it's all part of being human. What your feeling and facing is very common. Try to use it to be more present and enjoy them and the time you have and less distracted by the fears. Try writing the fears out in a journal to just release them and your emotions. And if you feel yourself starting to grieve their future loss, let yourself grieve. Your parents survived the loss of their parents, you will survive the loss of yours too.