Hello everyone! I am sorry for being inactive, I have just been busy with school and life in general. How is everyone doing?? I am doing okay. I don't know if anyone will get trigger about bipolar/personality disorders but if you are then I would stop reading at this point. **Yesterday was kind of a rough day for me. My psychiatrist told me yesterday that I am having a manic episode and that she is upping my dosage and also prescribing me medication to help me sleep. I don't have a problem going to sleep, I have a problem staying asleep. We also talked about me potentially having BPD and that I needed to make sure I talked to my therapist to see if I have it. She said that I also have to talk to my insurance about getting a dietitian. Also, I went to the doctors to get some lab work done for my psychiatrist and during that trip, I ended up having anxiety attack. I had to order an uber to get to the doctors office and I was there for maybe about five minutes. After the doctor was finished, she told me to have a good day. I didn't think that the appointment would be so quick so I went outside to try to order anothere uber to take me back to my dorm room. As I went to the uber app, I realized that I had no service. I walked around a bit to see if my service would come back but it didn't. I then decided to walk down the road because I thought that maybe it was the area that I was in that didn't have reception. Walking down the road, I realized that I still didn't have an service so I tried shutting my phone off and turning it back on to see if that would help. It didn't. At this point, I started to panic because I didn't know where I was and I couldn't get a ride. I was on the verge of tears, I could barely breathe, and I started to shake really bad. I don't know if I have told you guys this but I am really paraniod and I have a big fear of being kidnapped. (When I am in a uber, I stay on the phone with a friend and let them know where I am). I noticed this man in his truck just sitting there. He wasn't doing anything but my paranoia got the best of me and I thought he was plotting to get me. I walked to this wellness clinic still trying to get some service and I still couldn't get any service. My dorm was in walking distance but I was familiar with the area and didn't know where to go. I tried calling my roommate but she didn't answer and then I called my other best friend. When she answered, I told her what was happening and she stayed on the phone with me. All of a sudden, I got a little reception and I was able to get an uber! Day saved right? No. I got an uber and I was waiting on him to come pick me up. On the uber app, you can see where and how far your driver is from you. I guess he didn't know where he was going because he went everywhere except for where I was. I was outside waiting for about 40 minutes waiting on him to come and he didn't show up. Eventually, he went the opposite way and I assumed that he just gave up. I gave up and walked back to my room using the map from the uber app. It was a very stressful day but I am okay now. Just tired. Ready for a break.
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Really sorry to hear that the paranoia is rearing its ugly head. Glad to hear that you're doing well in general though! Have a nice day!
in reply to Lefty_Epee
Thank you so much!! You have a nice day as well!!
I'm sorry you had that experience, panic attacks can be really scary. I'm glad you were able to get home safely though. I've had periods of time where I couldn't stay asleep as well, it can be really frustrating. Navigating stress/staying on top of mental health in college can be A LOT, so if you need to talk don't hesitate to post on here!
in reply to mantis-toboggan
it is a lot to handle but its okay.. we got this.. and I will try to post more often just been really busy with school and what not
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