Feeling insecure, hopelessness, tired and worried about my future...

[Dreamer468]

I'm having a hard time for a while especially worried about my future since I've failed 2 semesters in college. I know it can be passed through reapplying but I can't focus on my studies like I used to be (if I had, I wouldn't be even worried about getting passed that good was I am). Well, all went downhill in my 12th grade where my depression,social anxiety, OCD and other things became worse. All my hobbies and interests drowned in depression. I was just living through each day. Now, I'm getting older and don't have any plans, I worried about my future.

[Against_the_current]

Currently struggling with the same thing. I'm year 3 and i feel like a freashman. I just cried myself out instead of paying attention in online classes. I used to be so smart but since 11th grade it's impossible to even have a lesson without getting a panic attack. All my inteligence is Wasted. My teachers made me homeschooled at 11th grade and when i finally went to university, pandemic happened and a massive family trauma. I'm feeling like i'm unfixable and i will go crazy or at least won't be able to wrk. Others my Age work and i can't even have a lection. I guess this is just catastrophizing and we will make it

[Roxylox in reply to Against_the_current]

I feel so sorry for you both struggling under the burden of study. I know how easy it can be to fall behind. I have witnessed it with a friend of my daughter's. The path of college has not been easy for him.He is now in final year however. All l can say is please try not to stress too much, and if all goes to all look for viable alternatives.

[Against_the_current in reply to Roxylox]

Thank you. I'm studing for a psychologist and i won't give up easy 😉

[Dreamer468 in reply to Against_the_current]

Thanks for sharing and wishing you that everything will become better for you soon. Eventhough I'm constantly thinking about dropping off college, everyone told me it is a bad idea since I only have 1 more semester to go. I think I will complete it(eventhough I have no friends in college and I'm hard time socializing which also affects and traumatized my studies). As time passes, things will get better. I think..

[Against_the_current in reply to Dreamer468]

Yes, complete it. One more semester than a lifetime feeling bad about it and working something you don't like. It's worth it and you can do it

[crowningglory19]

I'm sorry, and I know that is very hard to overcome and takes much trying and trying. Sometimes we have to start before we even let ourselves think too much about it, just step forward, not even thinking about the big picture and the end result, but doing that one step then the next. Self discipline is a hard thing esp when battling depression. I know you are able, and are good, it's just hard. Do you take a good multi vitamin to help give your body and mind what it needs? It's amazing how much extra B vitamins can help with energy and focus, and magnesium can give a calm spirit mind and body, I know they don't fix everything but it's a good base to start with. Also, taking walks, not fast or hard, just a stroll to settle your mind and push things behind you that need left behind so you can move forward. Sending you healing hugs and prayers for your healing and peace.