IS THE THREAT REAL

I have already quitted two jobs and in the process of quitting a new one I just started this month. Why? I am afraid to step out of my house to go to work. It all started May 2020 at the first job I left, I was threatened by a customer and right afterwards I started feeling that I was being tracked, I observed that certain car move when I left home for work or when I left work. After trying to push through my fears by going to work, I broke down in September and stopped work. I went back to my dad's place and stayed for three months hoping that by changing environment, it will help me heal, however, it didn't as I could not leave the house or go out without someone accompanying me. The current job I am about to leave, the interview for the job was attended by myself and my dad as I could not go alone.

So after leaving my first job I stayed indoors, where I felt safe for 6 months. After these six months I felt I was better and started looking for another job and in July of this year I had one and started, into my third week at this job a random lady walked up to me while looking at her and asked me "what time will you close" that question set into motion my panic attack, after forcing myself to report to work for two more days, I stopped. And stayed home again. In August I received a call to start this current job and I can count the number of days I have reported to work. A question by a fellow colleague set into motion the reason why I am unable to go to work right and the fact that this Sunday I felt like a car was monitoring me and my sister when we closed from church. My desperation has led me to look for this support group. The underlying issue is I do not feel safe in my country anymore, I do not trust anyone as I feel those tracking me are bribing people to get information about me. Please help me as I need to return to work, I have responsibilities.

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[artisticcatowner]

Wow, I can’t say I’ve had that version of panic attack But that sounds very difficult and I’m not sure what exactly would help

[Midori]

Oh dear, that does sound like you are in a fragile state. Can you get to see a doctor? feeling like you are being tracked or followed is not good. Even if it is just your imagination working overtime, it make you feel worse as time goes on.

Please try to see your doctor about it. Covid really hasn't helped folk who may be emotionally fragile, and possibly a short course of antidepressants, or a psychologist might be able to help you not feel so panicky.

Cheers, Midori