Why can't I never seem to enjoy anything with some people and always has be loud at the youth club?

I always has a issue with my ear that are sensitive and dislike loud noise is main part of the youth club and yep is the people there. my ex boyfriend only bother me if I don't have a member of staff. My mum never get give I another time anyway. i just stick with always being upset no matter what I do. it never end with being happy. I am always tired must of time. this what I always seem to go through with each youth club no matter if i want to go or I am not sure about. it more about my ex boyfriend that I am not sure if I want to counting going or not. men there already had a girlfriend. so what the point of going. there more girls then boys there anyway from my old college that one girl is rude to I.