I'm falling again

[stellab2]

I thought I finally reached the light at the end of the tunnel. I was wrong. I fell completely back into depression. I am so exhausted with it. I push everyone away and can't go out with friends anymore. I'm falling deeper and deeper back again. I feel nothing but emptiness, my brain is fogged I can't fix it, and I can't see an ending to this one.

[Moonira]

Hi Stellab2. I totally understand the dark cloud, beast, call it what you will poisoning your existence. I have been in depression and anxiety for about a year now. Have a phobia about death so suicide not an option along with the knowledge of the consequences such an act would have on my love and amazing children. Soooo I like you are stuck to face the beast, take it by the horns and deal with it. I know how terribly painful and paralyzing depression is. Here are a few things that work for me. I don't feel like it but I force myself to go on a walk once a day rain or shine. My partner always wants to come with me and we play the "name 3..." game. I force myself to be observant of things such as flowers, people passing by (I force a smile and a friendly hello), what is going on with renovations, are the leaves starting to change etc. Yesterday went for a nice relaxing Swedish massage. Then went into the hot and hot and cold spas. Felt alive!!!! Depression is a thief that wants to suck the life out of us so we MUST be courageous and take that

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[stellab2 in reply to Moonira]

Thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to respond. I appreciate it and will take you for your word.

[Shnookie]

Yes depression can be a bitch. But another thing U can do is listen to music U enjoy. Journaling , meditation positive visualization. Right now I’m going thru some depression and anxiety. Fortunately I’m not working this week. I empathize and I am here 4 U hugs 🤗 Shnookie

[stellab2 in reply to Shnookie]

Thank you Shnookie, it has been overwhelming, but nice to know I'm not alone.

[Shnookie in reply to stellab2]

No Stella U R not alone. I’m not working this week and feel like I can’t get off the couch. I’ve run some errands and made phone calls but I feel as though I need to make a greater effort to accomplish these things.