My old employer

[lukas01]

Right so one of my family members has come and said that the place I used to work at is looking for people and the supervisor asked for me. I’ve worked there before and one of my very first post on here is about my employment there and how I felt working and how it’s affected me to this day right now I just feel scared and anxious I’m on tablets trying to fix myself. I just don’t want to return there in which I won’t but it’s made me feel uneasy when I heard they want me back. Due to my experience there I don’t know if I ever will be confident in life I’m currently waiting on my Asd diagnosis appointment. And I’m currently on Universal credit I just feel so hopeless what should I do to beat those thoughts and become confident again. I will certainly not be going back to that place not after my experience and what it’s made me go through.

[notanotter]

Can you clarify, why does it make you feel uneasy that your old supervisor asked for you?

To me, it sounds positive that they asked about you. You don’t have to go back to work there if you don’t want to or if it’s not healthy for you.

My parents’ neighbor owns a store. This year their employee with ASD is the best employee in the store. He is reliable and polite, he always comes to work and he works hard. They are glad they hired him. They are fine that he is not the fastest person because he is the most reliable instead.

[lukas01 in reply to notanotter]

It’s the fact that I had an awful experience at that place which has affected my confidence with myself it’s worsened my anxiety. Whenever I look back working at that company it’s caused me trauma. There were moments where I just couldn’t sleep and it’s affected me massively.

[Midori]

In my experience it is never a good idea to go back to a situation which was not a good one. It will always lurk at the back of your mind and you will constantly feel on edge.

[lukas01 in reply to Midori]

Definitely I’ve already said to my brother that I’m not going back there. It was a traumatic experience and I definitely do not want to be going through it again.

[Midori]

Very sensible.