The long road ahead

[Mrspjsmom]

This morning I had an appointment with my psychiatrist. I had hoped the worsening of my anxiety could be fixed easily but it can't. I have been lying to myself and trying to be optimistic. But the truth is am in a very bad place again. Past traumas have reared their head and my doctor asked if I was having suicidal thoughts. I'm not so that's a good thing since I was hospitalized in the past after a suicide attempt. But my coping tools are no longer working and my support system has fallen apart. So now I feel like I'm starting over yet again. I have fought this battle before and know I can do it again. I WILL WIN eventually but know I have a long road ahead of me. I only hope you will walk the road with me.

[Agora1]

You Will and you Can win again. Take our hand, we will walk this road together xx

[Mrspjsmom in reply to Agora1]

I appreciate the help.

[Downandout123]

Can't you see me? I'm right there beside you! 🤗

[Agora1 in reply to Downandout123]

I see you xx

[Mrspjsmom]

Thank you everyone. I know you are with me and that means more than you know. HUGS and BLESSINGS!

[Roxylox]

With you, you are strong, you can do it!

[samack]

Good for you.. Walking the walk, thats way better than any other. We will all walk til we reach our well being again.

[Imstruggling1]

I also face the same struggles you are going through. I believe I need medical intervention again but the only thing the hospital did for me the last time is over medicate me. So I continue my treatment with my psychiatrist and therapist, pretending I am better than I really am. My whole life I’ve had to pretend. With my parents, my husband and my doctors. I’m here for you if you need someone to lean on. Keep fighting these struggles. I’m right beside you

[Mrspjsmom in reply to Imstruggling1]

Thank you. I was very lucky. Before I was hospitalized I had a terrible therapist. Her response to everything was listen to the song Let it Go from the movie Frozen. Being hospitalized led me to the doctor and therapist I have now. They are wonderful and if one coping skill doesn't work for me they work with me to find another. I have a much better understanding of my depression and anxiety and don't fear looking for answers on my own with their direction. And for the record I have never watched Frozen or listened to Let It Go. To me it is a symbol of just how much I wasn't listened to.

[samack in reply to Mrspjsmom]

your therapist story wins the prize for wackiest incompetence I've ever heard of. Send her a note and tell her you finally did Let it Go, by leaving her.😺

[Mrspjsmom in reply to samack]

Thanks for making me laugh.

[b1b1b1 in reply to samack]

Great answer. Made me laugh too!.

[RemySue]

I am so sorry I'm back in therapy after a several year break of doing well. It's a setback, not a failure-good luck!

[Mrspjsmom in reply to RemySue]

Good luck to you as well. Glad you are back in therapy if you feel you need it.

[Hope4me1]

I, too have had a life long problem with anxiety and depression. I know how it feels to be well and secure, calm and confident. I also have set backs too often when my trama from my past brings me down again. I am in a set back now and struggling once more but I am here for you. I understand. We will be at peace once more. We just have to do the work and be patient and accept and care for ourselves with lots of self love. I wish you all the best. Hugs💕

[Mrspjsmom]

Thank you. We will get through this together.

[Catsamaze ADAA Volunteer]

Hi Mrspjsmom. I've found that anxiety is a prison I've been sentenced to, or more accurately that I've sentenced myself to. We get credit for time already served, or better put, progress that we've already made. Sounds like you've made a lot of progress. You are not back to square one.

[Mrspjsmom in reply to Catsamaze]

Going to take things one day at a time and enjoy the good days.

[Hidden]

You have got this. You are now being honest with yourself, you are on the right path. You are never alone on this journey. So many people experience these problems. And you are here!

[Hisanoohta]

Hi, yes, it takes time. It took me one year to over come my anxiety. It was soo difficult but constantly trying to move forward. I tried my best. Keep moving forward.

[Chair1]

I myself suffer and honestly can't see a life ahead without it. I am here for you any time though with any help you need. ❤️

[Wooded_Trail]

Sometimes coping tools do fail for sure at some of the toughest moments. I bet we have all been there. Keep focused on the future and know this will pass. Things will be real tough for now, but you will get through it like you have done before.!

[Oshgosh]

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