A small step...

[BlueMoon29]

So today I have been in a different mindset than the last few weeks. I still cried but it was more for a release than a state of depression. I really did a lot of thinking. I did well most of my afternoon until I looked up something I knew I shouldn't have. I got down and cried asking why I wasn't good enough to have what others have. Then I blurted out "well if you don't love yourself how can you expect others to?" And I thought about that for awhile. How can I expect anything good in my life if I don't believe I deserve it? If all I do is wallow in my own misery? Now this is just today, my moods change so often I could feel completely different tomorrow. But I really don't want to, I want to keep feeling this and doing whatever it takes to achieve it. Thank you all for your support on my last post. It really meant a lot ❤

[Doomtastic55]

I am feeling the same way! All I do is wallow in my depression and negative thoughts about myself. I know if I don’t break out of it, no one will love me. I just got back on my meds because I couldn’t get out of my bed and I have kids to take care of. I too am up and down everyday is different. I try so hard to stop the self loathing, but that voice inside my head I can’t shut off. I feel like I’m so uninteresting and boring. I have to make myself do things with people so that I don’t become completely isolated, but I really don’t want to.

[BlueMoon29 in reply to Doomtastic55]

Yes I have been the same way these past few months. I've isolated myself completely, found no joy in anything. I started a new diet 5 days ago and have been listening to this specific hypnosis video and I believe the two together are starting to make a difference. I had so much energy (without caffeine) that I could barely even sleep! If you're interested to know about these you can send me a message. I hope you find something to help pull you out of your depression too.