Trying something different

Hi, I am new here and kind of interested to see how this goes. I think that I will like the privacy of just letting my feelings fly. I work on line and that has made what has been most of my life a chronic low grade depression really spike. All my pants are elastic and I have gained weight and become pretty unhealthy. I have teens that struggled with lock down and one kid with some very low self esteem. I looking to connect and talk to people who are trying to take care of themselves as I am. I feel like I have lost myself a bit. I am the primary breadwinner, care for my elderly Dad who mopes around, and my 2 kids. My husband is a good guy but unfortunately I have found myself holding on to some resentments that were my own vulnerabilities from my childhood with my dad. Hoping that my feelings resonate with someone else because I could use some support to encourage me to try new things to get myself going.

[hypercat54]

Well if you are concerned about privacy it's best to lock your post to this community otherwise everything you write could end up anywhere including social media.

[Hidden in reply to hypercat54]

How do I do that?

[hypercat54 in reply to Hidden]

Just before you post there is the option to click on community only. The default is set to everyone so you have to change it. You can edit your post/replies so look for that option on your device.

[My4leggeddaughter]

You have to remember that you are strong but can only do so much. I also hold alot of resentment with my other half but I'm working on it.

[Hidden in reply to My4leggeddaughter]

Thank you. I am kind of tired of being strong. It has been exhausting doing so. I think that is why this seems to make sense to me. I can say I do not feel great and that I can admit it rather than being in overdrive so much

[Kat_21]

Hello! It definitely resonates with me. I gained weight before covid though. I fell ill and couldn't take care of myself. During this time I've been reflecting on a lot of things. I've lost nearly 30lbs, though not in a healthy way... Would you like to talk about everything going on? I also have quite a bit of resentment, but for my mother.

[Hidden in reply to Kat_21]

Sure. I am up for that

[Kat_21 in reply to Hidden]

Awesome! Anytime you feel like you need a friend, just send me a message.

[SillyHuman]

5-HTP WORKED FOR MY MORNING ANXIETY

My doctor tried Buspirone (Buspar) and Lexapro.

Both work with Serotonin.

Serotonin is for both Anxiety and Depression.

No improvement. Just kept getting worse.

My doctor said to "give it time".

I talked to someone who used Lexapro for 4 years and it wasn't helping .

Then I started thinking that maybe there was no Serotonin in my brain for the meds to work with .

5-HTP is used to produce Serotonin.

It's like I was stepping on the gas pedal but the gas tank was empty.

I just started using 5-HTP yesterday for horrible Morning Anxiety/Dread.

I noticed a 90% improvement this morning.

I'm using Irwin Products Double Potency 5-HTP Extra for $22 at CVS.

I also took some Nature Made 3,000 mcg Sublingual Vitamin B-12 but I don't know if it helped or not.

You can get straight 5-HTP for around $10.

Let us know if it helps.

Anxiety depletes serotonin, which increases anxiety, which depletes more serotonin, which creates more anxiety... Until you hit rock bottom and just can't get back up.

You can't just think your way out of it without Serotonin.

[Midori]

Many of us know the feeling of tightening waistbands right now. Covid has done us no favours in the weight department!

Do you hold resentment for your father? from the past?

I get the feeling you feel overwhelmed by responsibility at the moment. Does everyone help with chores? or is it all left up to you? If the second, I suggest some redistribution of responsibilities, to give your self a breathing space.

For starters, Are you an only child? if not can your siblings take turns with looking after your father?

You say the kids are teens; get them to help; don't ask them, tell them they need to be responsible for their own clothing, room tidiness, etc., and it doesn't hurt to teach them how to clean a bathroom. They could also help with Grandpa.

Does your husband help at all? He lives there too, he can pick up after himself, and run the washing machine occasionally. Your father should be made to help a little too. Who cooks?

It should not all fall on your shoulders.

I will suggest you see your doctor to get something to help you cope.

Cheers, Midori