Just a feeling

[Caroline_24]

I just felt a great pain in my heart when I read this. I know that this is not a best approach towards life but it is how I feel. I'm sorry that I post this here I don't want to bother anyone by these kind of sad quotes but the thing is I have no one to talk about how I feel trapped in my past mistakes and problems. I have 24 years old and although I'm not that old but in my heart I think that there is no future for me, every thing is fading away in the dark. I just wanted to share with kind people here.

[DodgeDhanda]

U are free to speak up here & that quote is a quote to prove everyone & everything from that past that U have the drive to get passed the past & MAKE UR OWN NEW FUTURE. When something strikes you & you feel its true , its at that moment you need to reflect on what u have changed & celebrate those wins be they big or small. & endeavour to work on those challenges that are just out of reach . It's something we should work on everyday. I do every morning I start with my self mantras to get my day started both outside & within myself & my mental health.

You must remember to be patient & not give up or feel like giving up as that's the negativity trying to fool u & it'd clinging on , which means ur working on urself & u can or won't see the results bit others will notice .

Hope u have a positive Sunday Caroline.

[Caroline_24 in reply to DodgeDhanda]

Dear DodgeDhanda,

you are always so kind to me and I appreciate it. I believe that you are right but brining this attitude into life is so hard for me.

[DodgeDhanda in reply to Caroline_24]

Hi Caroline

I feel it U putting pressure on urself to get it sorted as fast as possible but cuz it's not moving as fast a U possibly want , U feel it won't happen for U.

Now I'm saying slow down & especially ur mind as it needs to realise that's its wired in a way that both U & ur brain needs to realise it. U need to accept it & educate ur thought patterns . Then U go again & focus on U & go slowly , baby steps as it's called also don't suffer alone , pop in here as often as u can & start a convo & write a post asking how people's day is going or went & SAAALOOOOWLEEEEEEE

No rush.

[Caroline_24 in reply to DodgeDhanda]

Dear DodgeDhanda,

Thank you for your kind reply.

you are absolutely right I have lots of things to sort out and since I don't have anyone in life to talk about these kind of problems I have to sort them all by my self and plus I don't want to be a burden to anyone. I need to believe in better days, I need to believe in Sun and small steps toward peace. I think having faith in bright future is all I need at the moment.

I hope you and your loved ones are in health and peace .

[Agora1]

Dearest Caroline, I read over some of Eugene O'Neil's quotes and they all seem to bea very negative thought provoking saying. When we fill our minds with nothing but negativity, we can't help to eventually start believing in that.

At 24y.o. you have just scratched the beginning of your life. No matter how many times you feel you have failed, the idea is to learn from those experiences. It should never stop us in

going forward. That is when we become stuck in a cycle of despair and hopelessness.

YouTube is filled with many positive Affirmation videos which would be much better for you

to watch and listen to. Sometimes we all need that little push in life in going around the

boulders in the road just to find what may be waiting for us just ahead xx

[Caroline_24 in reply to Agora1]

Dear Agora,

thank you for the time you spend to read my post and write me a comment, you are right but brining these attitude to real life is so difficult for me. I used to do meditation with YouTube videos and they really helped.

[samack]

Yikes. the future is all we have. You are young still and have a lot of time to heal and have a good life. they didn't understand about trauma in my days. You will heal.

[lovetodance2018]

Thank you for sharing. I am sorry you are struggling. Depression keeps us from seeing hope in our future. Have you seen a doctor or a counselor with how you are feeling? I have been there where I could not see a future, but I had to get help to get past those emotions. Depression is a chemical imbalance and it affects our thoughts or being able to find joy in anything. With the right help - often medication and counseling we can begin to see clearer and a see a future. Letting go of the past is difficult but possible. I have struggled on and off for 20+ years with depression. I have been doing great for over a year now. What helped me was becoming aware of what I need, not being so hard on myself, understanding that I am not causing my depression, letting go of the past, and finding things that bring joy in my present. A big part of that is positive self-talk and prayer.

Here are 4 techniques that really help me.

1) Reminding myself that healing comes from the inside out. It starts with letting go of the things of the past, forgiving and changing our focus and behavior. Becoming aware of what you need through self-care and personal nourishment. Take time for yourself - you are worth it. Like taking walks, baths, massages, mani/pedi/, listening to uplifting music/sermons and anything that makes you feel refreshed and renewed.

2) The 557 breathing technique is take 5 deep breaths in while thinking good thoughts about yourself like I matter, I am special, I am strong and then hold the breaths for the count of 7 focusing on those words about yourself, then let out the breath slowly for 5 seconds letting go of any anxious, self-defeating, unhealthy thoughts. I do this one to three times a sitting.

3)The gratitude journal is writing down something good every morning and night something that went well in the day, or something I appreciate about myself. Taking our focus off of the anxiety and depression and focusing on positive uplifting things really helps. What you think is what you believe. So thinking uplifting things you believe those things but the reverse is true - thinking negative self-defeating things, you will believe those.

4) Emotional Freedom Tapping - bit.ly/3f26MTd Uses pressure points that you tap on while you repeat positive uplifting things to yourself.

I will be praying for you. Feel free to pm me if you'd like to chat. Hugs and God Bless

[Caroline_24 in reply to lovetodance2018]

Dear lovetodance2018, Thank you for the time that you dedicated to write this amazing comment for me. you are so kind and thank you for the techniques that you suggested. Sorry that I'm replying to your comment with delay but let me tell you why:

currently in my life I am dealing with depression and the only good thing that I have in my life is that every morning I run. I was doing great and I was proud of my self I didn't run to be fit or anything but it just helped me start my day fresh and good(it kind of gives me the idea that I am running from a monster called depression). regarding your third technique, 6 days ago, for the first time I started to write things that I'm grateful in my life and guess what I started first? in the first row, I wrote that I am grateful for my legs because I can run with them and I couldn't think about anything else(I also wrote that I am grateful for my eyes because I can read poems with them) but then 4 days ago while I was walking down the stairs in metro station, my ankle got twisted and the doctor advised me not to walk for the next 3-4 weeks and while I was in emergency room I was subbing because I felt that the only good thing in my life is taken away from me, I felt like god has some kind of problems with me. I feel so hopeless and I really cant understand why this should happen to me exactly when I feel so hopeless and the only good thing in my life is running. It just doesn't make any sense. so I guess focusing on good stuff doesn't work for me.

[lovetodance2018 in reply to Caroline_24]

Thank you for letting me know how you are doing? I am sorry to hear about your twisted ankle. It will heal and you will be running again. Remember you also mentioned your eyes and reading poems. Don't give up on the grateful things, the more you do it, the more you will learn to appreciate lots of things about yourself. Don't just focus on one thing. Each day see if you can find even one thing and it can be the same or different from the day before. I have learned if I first keep my focus on God and then ask him to show me what is special about me, I feel better. I will continue to be praying for you and that your ankle heals quickly. PM me anytime if you want to chat. Hugs and God Bless

[Caroline_24 in reply to lovetodance2018]

Thank you for your words. I'm working so hard on being grateful for small things in my life. When I got twisted ankle, I cried so hard in the hospital but now I'm happy that its not broken and hopefully with 3 weeks rest I cant walk again(without sticks). I guess this is depression that sometimes comes and goes.

You are so kind and I hope you and your loved ones are at peace and health.

[Caroline_24]

Dear ChavivLeon,

you are so kind and I'm grateful for the time you spend to write me this positive note. I feel good when you think that there is still hope in my heart. the thing is some times I feel like an amazing life is in front of me and I CAN make it an amazing journey but the next day I feel like I don't want to live anymore. but most of the times I feel like I don't deserve to live because I don't live properly(I don't have a job yet and I cant focus on my studies). some times I feel that why should I bother all the people around me and specially my mother, she support the family(my parents live together but they are emotionally separated and my dad doesn't work) and she has to work so hard to support the family and I cant do anything for her, I mean she never ask for anything she always says that I just want you to be happy but I cant even do this for her.

[ShouldaWouldaCoulda]

O sweetie, do not take this quote to heart. You must understand d Eugene O’Neil was a playwright. As he introduced realism into acting during the early 1900’s, he wrote of depression and longing and anxiety…..all those “great” feelings”. A Long Days Journey Into Night’ is considered one of his best.

There is a quote whose truthfulness will resonate more “There is no past or future…..there is only the present”.

[Caroline_24 in reply to ShouldaWouldaCoulda]

Dear ShouldaWouldaCoulda,

Thank you for your kind reply.

I used to read O’Neil plays once I was in high school, " A Long Days Journey Into Night" was my favorite. I remember I felt a great sorrow for the children and the mother in that play at that time.

The problem is that the other day when I saw this quote on internet I suddenly felt a strong and sad connection with this quote. I know that there are more happy quotes in literature and its better to concentrate on them but this was how I felt the other day.

[ShouldaWouldaCoulda in reply to Caroline_24]

You might want to check into what being an Empath means. There are some such as yourself (and me) that somehow “feel” MORE of what others are feeling. You may feel the “vibe” which can change how you feel yourself if you’re not careful. I know I also connect and react to stories or incidents or anything really first with my emotions. It’s something I’ve just started learning about. May we both be happy and content with this journey we’re on. E

[Caroline_24 in reply to ShouldaWouldaCoulda]

Thank you for your words.You are right. I feel that when something happens to me I feel it with all my heart and I carry it in the surface of my skin for a long time. It is important to control thoughts and emotions.

I wish you peace and health for you and your loved ones.