Triggered

[BrownEyesBlue]

I’m feeling a little triggered. I had a panic attack out of the blue. I decided to go for a walk to make myself feel better. I ran into two “friends” who brought up this guy I was suppose to spend some time with. A trip I was really looking forward to. I felt like an idiot as I stumbled over my words trying to explain. One even brought up that a mutual friend had asked her if I had a boyfriend. I felt mortified. It’s no ones business. And he was NEVER my boyfriend. Just someone I was seeing and was very hopeful about.

Those feelings I’ve been choking back for over a week and finally starting to feel better just came flooding back and all I want to do is cry. And I almost unblocked him because “what if he wants to contact me and try again?”

But I didn’t because I can’t ignore the red flags anymore.

It just really sucks. I feel like I’m going to be alone forever. I honestly don’t even want to try again.

Anddddd I think I have feelings for a good friend 🤦🏻‍♀️

[Doyg]

I don't think we know what the future holds. We have to trust that things will get better

[BrownEyesBlue in reply to Doyg]

You are right. I get so caught up in my emotions and struggle with myself.

[Doyg in reply to BrownEyesBlue]

All of us do. We try to move forward in life but it's hard