Night time blues

[Kevin160]

I need to get my brain chemistry normal again, im seeing that night time is noticeably more scary, anxiety filled, and uncomfortable, im relapsing mainly because i spent a long time feeling ok that i no longer feel in control as i did because i didnt need to if that makes sense.

But now i feel at times that im losing control eventhough i have nothing going on, im on break, i dont have anything on my plate, things are stable at home and woth my family so im not sure why my mind is making me feel so anxious and depressed, i really wanna go back to therapy and maybe take meds eventhough it will make me feel defeated and ashamed because i fixed myself the “easy way” thats what my mind would probably think.

I guess im just scared because im getting a taste of rock bottom again, the hoplessness, that horrible unease feeling, and the fears that come with it.

I know what i have to do thats why i dont really feel like i need to talk to a doctor just to gove me meds i will probably be able to go without (i know its wrong but i dont want meds atleast for the time being)

Someone remind me again of what to do to get these hormones rgulated again in my brain , i need my brain chemistry to align again

Exercise? , claire weekes method? ..um volunteering, music etc.. tell me anything

[Hb2003]

I’m so sorry that this is happening to you ☹️. When I am feeling sad or upset I listen to the violin or piano they both are soothing and calming to hear

[Hidden]

So it's pretty common to get more anxious at night. I am the same way, in that my body starts to relax and when that happens I tend to start thinking and that thinking soon spirals out of control. It is difficult to manage but it helps a lot of the time to get those thoughts out of your head by writing in a journal or something similar to that. Having a routine at night can help as well because routines are predictable and predictability calms us. One thing I will say is that it's okay to have flare ups for anxiety. Anxiety never truly goes away. There is no conquering it like you would say a common cold. Anxiety is an emotion just like anger or sadness. And sometimes anger gets the better of us or sadness does. It's the same thing with anxiety. the key to anxiety is to learn how to manage and regulate that emotion. We need to process what is bothering us even if it seems small or insignificant. We have to face those things in order to manage our anxiety. For you it seems like this period of calm is causing you anxiety and depression because there is nothing to distract yourself with. Distractions can be useful, however, when we use them to avoid our problems we end up making ourselves worse. So we still have to figure out what the root cause of our anxiety is. I cannot tell you what yours is but I will say that doing some self reflection about why the calm made you panic would be good. As always take things at your pace. If you feel to overwhelmed to reflect and think on things take a break and perform self care. It's about moving at your speed and not anyone else's.

[newbie1956]

Dear Kevin,

You have been given some good advice & it will be helpful to the extent that you can apply it. We who experience anxiety & depression know it's not easy.

These scary feelings, which often hits us without reason, can be difficult, but

remember you've been there before, so it's temporary, it will subside.

Prayer helps me so much, Kevin. You can always avail yourself of this provision.

I love you, dear one

❤️