Random Vent

I just don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I’m just living in this constant state of depression anxiety and my life isn’t going anywhere/ changing. I have okay people in my life I guess but nobody that gives me any excitement . I have no like .. best friend . I just feel so lonely . And I know I am not the only one. I know so many people feel alone. I know I am not alone. I know so many people struggle with mental illness. But why is it this way? I’m so sick of feeling like I can’t be myself because I’m depressed or negative and people don’t want that in their life. Like I get that I need to try and change that ,. And I’m trying. And I know my friends and family want me around , but I don’t want to be around them when I feel like this all the time. But then I have constant Fomo . It’s a horrible cycle . I also feel so fucking selfish cause all I do is think about myself but then I don’t even try and fix my problems . I’m just a mess

Anywyas just needed to vent. Keeep forgetting about this site lol

[Shnookie]

Hi this Shnookie. I’m here 4 U. U R not selfish. It’s good that U came here. We R a supportive group. I haves more than once on this site. Do U have a therapist. And if So, R U taking any meds 4 your depression. If U would like U can contact me privately.

Hugs 🤗 Shnookie

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I understand how you feel. I feel the same most days. It's really hard when you feel alone. When you don't have anyone you feel you can authentic with it's incredibly draining on your psyche. You are not selfish for thinking of yourself. In a lot of ways you are just trying to survive day to day and coping with life the best way you can. It is frustrating though, to put on the fake smile because people don't want sad or negative people in their lives. I am in this same position, and it' get's so hard because how do you reach out when you know you are just going to be negative and others will eventually just stop paying attention because it seems like nothing is changing. I want to validate that things are changing. It takes a long time. This is the untold truth of mental health, healing hurts. It is not fun or refreshing. It takes serious introspection and years to develop the right mindset. And if you have been abused or traumatized by anything that makes healing that much harder. It's honestly really shitty at first. But it's like running up a hill. It's god awful when you start. You feel like you are going to die. You are out of breath. Everything hurts. You don't even get to the top at first. But the more you work at it the farther you get. There will be days where you don't make progress, or days when you are not feeling it and won't get as far as you did the last time but so long as you keep consistently working you get better over time. Mental health is exactly the same way. At first it's almost unbearably painful but each day as we consistently work at it it gets a little easier. I am always here to chat if you need someone to talk to. I understand your predicament and so you can be as negative as you need to be and you will get no judgement from me. My inbox is always open.

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Your vent is like my own. I know I don't want anyone around me either when I'm at that point. It's even.harder when you have to work and feel that way. I feel like I'm wearing a mask when ideal with people. Just a fake smile and hope they don't feel sorry for you. It's even harder when I don't try to work on mine either. I always feel guilty when I don't try to work on it.

[jb042711]

Let me first start off by reassuring you that you are not alone. I too have faught with anxiety and depression. I know it's hard. I know it hurts. I like how someone on here described the healing process as an uphill climb. I've noticed that myself, in my battle. It really is an uphill climb. I'm a Christian, and so having God to turn to has helped me. Even though I still have my bad days, and my rough days, I know that he's always there, and ready to listen to me. Do you have a support system? Do you have a faith to turn to? There's a couple pieces of advice I can give you. Don't tell people that you're ok, when you're really not. Don't be afraid to admit when you're not ok. Don't try to hide the pain. Let it out. I don't know if your way of letting it out is through journaling, or crying, or what it is, but let the pain out. That's the only way you'll start to feel better and start the healing process. It might be a good idea to look into counseling or therapy too.I hope this helps. If you need to talk, please don't be afraid to reach out.