He deserves so much more

[zmary7775]

I have the most wonderful boyfriend . He is so patient and loving and always stands by me, but I have a terrible problem with social anxiety and I cant even go to parties or get togethers with him because I'm so awkward I cant bear to be there. I don't know how to relate or talk to anyone and it is so painful to go through. He doesn't pretend to understand what I am going through but he is always supportive of me and lets me know that he loves me. But I cant do this to him any more. Its not fair to him. He is a social guy and loves to be around people. He just wants for me to be by his side when he does it but I cant do it most times and it is getting to him I can tell. I want him to be happy and don't want him to have any regrets and I don't want to hold him back.

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I feel like I've never related to a post so much--unfortunately I ended breaking things off with my s/o.My advice would be to really stop telling yourself that you're so awkward or socially awkward even if you are. Please at least try to tell yourself that you're great at opening up to others. I mean come on--you ended up winning the heart of an outgoing guy right?

Not to invalidate your social anxiety I understand it because I have it myself. But don't ruin a good things because of little insecurities here or there because the truth is we all have them. It's how you choose to fight for the people you care about and it seems like you want to make him happy so you may have to try new ways to put yourself out there. Not just for him but for yourself because YOU ARE CAPABLE of being the person you want to be. I promise you!

[zmary7775 in reply to Hidden]

thank you for that.

[zmary7775]

Maybe i will try some. thank you