Ruined my academic performance which was my only shot.

[kaizen453]

I am 27. Can i change and be better? I am good for nothing. I donot have any skills. I am unemployed and I see myself nowhere in any competition. My only thing was my academics but after high school I ruined it too. I am a graduate student now. But I failed in some subjects. I passed my undergraduate but i have no knowledge of what I studied. Can I recover all those loss and excel at my academics now? I don't think i will ever be good and competetive. I don't even know small things and I feel dumb infornt of my colleages.

[Hidden]

Hey, give yourself a break. All is not lost. I happen to be 50 years old and I attended college but I don't have a college degree. I went through some traumatic things when I was only 16, and really it was an accomplishment that I have a high school diploma. It's good to have a college degree, but there are also a lot of smart people out there who don't. So if you could do or have ANY job at all, what would you truly want to do and why????

[kaizen453 in reply to Hidden]

Nice to know that you are doing well. I fear everthing. I don't to do new tasks. I don't want to learn. Its not that I donot have time, but I always procrastinate until my exams and then I give up when there is very less time. I only want to stop overthinking and do things, study but that is the most difficult part.

[Hidden in reply to kaizen453]

Are you doing this for yourself or to please your parents??? What do you think you really want to do with your life? When you get to be my age, you realize how short life really is.

[Fearoffear]

It sounds like you have a very low self esteem with a lot of self negative talk. Can you get into therapy maybe see a doctor for some anti-depresants? I think you need to have an evaluation to see what your diagnosis is to treat accordingly. Until you can get some help have you tried meditation. There are YouTube videos and apps such as Dare or Insight timer. I hope this helped you with somewhere to start. Gentle hugs 🤗🤗

[lewis1]

How about turning the tables? try to not approach things as a competition. Allow yourself to look at jobs, life, relationships on the same level as others because I bet they are also doubting their skills. I hope you can find this useful, good fortune.