overwhelmed

[danceg]

It's mothers day, and i'm angry at her. not for something she did, but just the mere fact that she made me. i didn't ask to be born, and i just don't want to deal with responsibility or stress anymore. and so i'm angry. and everything is piling up, and i feel physically sick all the time, and i don't know how much more i can give until i fall apart again. we're nearing the end of the semester so i have to hunker down on studying and doing well in the remaining weeks, but i can barely focus. all i want to do is watch tv, or sleep. i don't want to do life anymore.

[Aryank]

I understand your feelings.. but we dint have an option... do what you like not others. Live for yourself, run away take a vacation put block on the people who irritate you no matter how close they are to you.

[TangledUpIn]

Danceg...I totally get it..I don't want to do life either. Does anything motivate you?

[danceg in reply to TangledUpIn]

I'd like to move to europe one day, and that's a big motivation. but sometimes it seems to hard to reach or too far away to even help motivate me. normally i'm ok with doing day to day things, but eventually it just gets too much.

[TangledUpIn in reply to danceg]

Hmmmmm yes that's a big motivation - a good one. I had dreams of living in Australia and japan and eventually I moved there. Even if you keep looking at pictures of Europe, it plants seeds in your psyche to one day go.

[Freesoul66]

I’m so sorry you are feeling so low... sounds like you need help.. have you considered reaching out to a counselor or nurse or someone in college?You seem to have no motivation and being sleepy all the time is a big sign too. Talk to your doc and get some therapy also... there seems to be a lot you need to let out.. in a safe space.... here to chat. Xoxo 🌹😘

[danceg in reply to Freesoul66]

Thanks, I do have a counselor and I'm meds

[mentalcase]

Be glad you have a mother because mine is dead and I don't even miss her. I've always wished that I'd been taken away from my parents because it was a very dysfunctional life. Yes it's mothers day but just another day for me. I have 3 children and won't give my phone number to 2 of them so it's been a bad mother's day. Don't let the stress and anxiety get too bad. Please get help. I just had a nervous breakdown almost 2 weeks ago because of a lot of stress. I let it build up until I exploded. I didn't call for help because the hospital would have committed me and I'm not going to another mental hospital. I have no friends to talk to so I was in very bad shape. Don't let this happen to you. Talk to someone and get it out before you explode.

[momofjust2boys]

I am so sorry you are having to go through this. It's not fair. I know counseling seems over suggested, but have you thought about it? It seems from your post that you are on a ledge. Please post back and let us know how you are.