feeling like life is pointless

[lauren22139]

I wish that we weren't looked down upon if we didn't focus on careers. I hate the way the world is built. As I get close to going to college my anxiety increases about not making enough money to live happily. I hate how it goes from working hard I high school then working hard in college then working hard at your job. I know we're supposed to enjoy the little things but what if you get tired of them. I can never stick to anything and ever since my friends left me I'm terrified to open up about my feelings to anyone close to me out of fear they'll leave me or think I'm stupid. I feel like I've realized that life is just a theater act and I can't seem to get back into character and pretend I'm excited to pursue and career and settle down. I know I could travel but I don't get excited about that either. It feels like everything I can think of gets rejected by my brain. I feel nothin I'm so numb when I'm alone and left with the thoughts in my head. Anyways let me know if you have any advice and thank you very much for reading this if you do. <3

[lauren22139]

sorry for the typos

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So you are right in that it's typically expected of you to fall in line with conventional modes of living. Go to grade school, university, then on with the career. However, this mold doesn't work for everyone and you shouldn't feel shame in wanting to or actually taking different path. You should find what brings you fulfillment as that is what will bring about meaning. Living off of what others thing will only bring you pain and suffering because that is not being authentic to who you are. Find some form of expression that you love and do that. Even if you don't make all the money in the world that is okay. There are plenty of plumbers out there who are way more satisfied and happy with their lives as there are CEO's and CFO's who hate their lives. Do what you need to for yourself. You don't need to perform in the act with everyone else. You can watch from the sides. Finding what you love can take time and it can be frustrating. You are not alone in this. So keep exploring and figuring out what works for you. The more you can find meaning in those things and in your relationships the happier your life will be. Search for meaning, not purpose or joy. Trying to force yourself on a path will never work and trying to be happy 24/7 will only make you miserable because it's not possible. Strive for meaning and you will figure things out. That is the real meaning behind enjoy the little things.

[RunningWind]

Lauren22139,I agree with you fully. And like endofheartache mentioned, find what you are passionate for. I thought about what made me happy and caring for others made me happy. So I made a career out of it. It isn't really a career to me though, as I don't loathe waking up everyday to take care of my patients. The job you choose won't be a job to you if you find something you enjoy. I have a friend who is a bar tender and LOVES their job. I also have a friend who became a nurse because their parents pressured them and they hate their job. There are also people who can help you figure out what you are passionate for and hopefully lead you on the right path! And college also has plenty of classes to help you find your passion too.

Hopefully this helps and we are always here

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I think 🤔 the replies are really helpful below. Why not do what you want to do and be who you are? That’s good you already figured the truth out so young. Why chase something that is not really gonna bring about happiness ? I say find what makes you content.