I can’t seem to know how to be content with the journey instead of focusing on the destination. I decided a couple months ago to focus on creating and selling art, but I’ve tried this before a year ago, and it didn’t go too well so I gave up. I’m feeling that way again, but I’m still persisting. But deep down I feel hopeless. My original plan was to be a graphic designer for a firm or client, but even that is and would take me a long time to achieve since I’m a beginner (side note: I came back from traveling in the summer and instead of going back to work, I decided to focus on studying and working on graphic design. I had a lot support from my dad, and everything seemed great and a good idea at the time). I’m 26 now. Still living with my parent. If I were younger, I probably would have more patience with myself. But I have this rushing urge to hurry up, get my life together, move out and live on. But I don’t have the patience anymore. I never believed in “just get a job to make money, not a job you’re passionate about.” But I think I might have to do that. But deep down, I don’t think that’s the path that was made for me.
I’m going to be traveling to my family’s country in a few weeks to visit for 3 months. I should be happy and feel blessed that I’m able to travel at all, let alone to such a beautiful country, but I’m a little stressed. I feel like I haven’t made any progress, and I feel like my life here is gonna be put on hold. I’m going to bring my laptop, tablet, everything so I can continue to work, but from my experience the internet there doesn’t work very well so working there may have a lot of limitations for me. These all sound like such trivial things, but my mind is spinning right now. It’s like I’m trying to race time constantly and I can’t freakin stop. I’m going insane.
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Artistic endeavors are challenging. I've been writing now for 9 years with not much success. I've decided to switch gears for a little bit as result. But I've known people who've had success. We just have to be flexible with our lives some times.
It takes time to get known as an artist, just as it does with a writer. Persevere, don't lose heart, sometimes you have to be bullheaded about things, and an agent might help your work be seen.
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